♥ glkw

♥ Sunday, September 27, 2009

feeling super sick now.
thot i just got sinus in the morning..
but it got worst.
having flu at dis time sucks.
head giddy like crazy.
how am i gonna study?
went home earlier to watch F1..
and here i am.
listening to a song..
wo de ai ren.
very nice nice nice.
been thinking alots.
things wont have happened if i learnt to control my temper.
you're always on my mind.
i nvr stopped missing and thinking of you.
will you turn back for the last time?
i dont have much hopes anymore.
it has been so long since i last talk to you.
maybe you have already forget tt you have met me b4.
i guess ur exams have already started.
pls do work hard..
try ur best and everything will be fine.
i still cant give up on you.
tell me why.
the first time i didnt bear to let go of something for so long.
its not me.

10:55 PM

♥ Saturday, September 26, 2009

arghhhhh GP paper dis morning.
screwed my wkend.
paper1 i didnt have enough time and ov2 was not well developed..
paper2 i didnt have enough time to complete AQ.
NOT ENOUGH TIME!
i'm just soooo damn screwed up!
hais maybe my GP is enough to make me retain.
didnt study much today..
i'm so tired..
slept at 1plus ytd..
wake at 4plus den couldnt slp anymore..
cuz i'm scared of GP.. i scared that i cant wake once i go back to slp again..
wad a idiot i am rights?

plans for tmr.
heading for j8 to get shunxiong's present..
den to airport!
needa real mugging time at my new place! <3333
staff canteen >.<
I SO WANNA STUDY INFRONT OF THE NO STUDYING SIGN!!! :D

IMY.

11:44 PM

♥ Friday, September 25, 2009

argh can my headache get lost!?!?!?
go awayyyy shoooooooooo!
i've been feeling tired tired tired.
nth can help.
i just hope the medicine will help me..
i cant afford to fall sick now.
pls.. i really wanna do my best.
i dontwant to disappoint you.
as promised.
i will do my best.
today will be the last day of official sch b4 promos.
the nxt day tt i'll be in sch..
it will be during chem paper.
hais i'm afraid wad happen during MYE will happen again.
total blankness.
give me some power will you?
i need it.

today.. one yr ago.
i rmbed.
i dont like heartbreakers.
yet i am one.
i'm just so sorry to you.
maybe you dont blame me anymore.
but i feel bad.

12:16 AM

♥ Wednesday, September 23, 2009

Hais attacked by severe headache!
Screwed up..
Sorry Travis I'll make up breakfast some other day..
And i miss my physics lessons.. Wth.
I dont slp very little can..
Why wont dis headache leave me alone!!!!!
Promos is nearing..
I cant afford to fall ill at dis time..

11:01 PM

♥ Saturday, September 19, 2009

i think i'm starting to enjoy the freedom i've regained!
i can do wad i want.
go out with whoever i want.
i've been really happy during the time spend with my seniors! <333
with them, i feel happy.
but i guess it wont last long.
cuz after their As they'll be gone.
i'll miss you guys.
and the guys are going to NS!
crashed jx's bday party.
rahhhh and i got into the pool for some 'i-still-dontnoe-wad' reason.
thank goodness my phone is not with me.
if its with me and it goes into the pool..
i'm so gonna kill you =x
is there something wrong when there's a huge decline in no. of sms i send?
there is nth wrong.

I GOT MY NIKE BAG AND I LOVEE IT!

11:24 PM

♥

this is the end.
there's no more links between us anymore.
its just as though i've nvr noe you b4.
if this is wad you really want.
let it be.
i'm tired of all the heartaches i've got from you.
i want to give up.
i really want to..
but tell me how to.

9:28 AM

♥ Friday, September 18, 2009

went to airport after sch and tried to study abit.
but was not very productive cuz i'm just so tired.
finding every single chance to just slp!
watched Gforce with the seniors at century square.
the usual group.
& the animals are soooo cute!
except the cockroaches.
its sooooo yucks >.< hahas we didnt slack lo.
we need to rest too! :)
den after that homed and reached like at 10.
tired tired tired!
randomly thot of something that char told me ytd.
she was like you rmb wad happened at kfc last yr(during Os period)?
eh guess wad i sort of forget =x
but i recalled..
i can only conclude that.
its girls' nature to get jealous easily :D

maybe it just take time for me to forget you.
perhaps we were nvr meant to be tgt.
i wont think bout it.
getting back tgt or wadever.
i will live my own life.
w/out you.
fate will decide my future for me.

11:44 PM

♥

finally did something productive at HOME after 3days.
look at the time now.
i'm left with 4hours of slp! :(
argh routine work not done.
after doing so, i'm gonna go straight to bed!
yawns gdnights all.
IMY!

2:09 AM

♥ Thursday, September 17, 2009

met char at compass pt right after sch.
hahas have been meeting her for the past 2days or so.
chatted and realized that we sort of lost contact for bout 3 yrs plus.
den got back again at the end of sec3.
when we had our pri sch gathering during mooncake festival.
know you since pri4.
and we seem to have rather little quarrels hor.
loveeeee basketball!
muhahahas. but i think i'm super lousy at it now..
haven been training for it for quite long.
so dont thrash me too badly huh.
okies the walk around compass pt tempt me to get some stuff!
I SO SUPER WANT THOSE STUFF!
NIKE BAG.
IPOD NANO.
CROWN RING!
i cant wait to get those stufffffff!!! :D
okies i just got my contact lens! :)
7months supply.. ^^
i think i will learn to let go as time passes.
dere's no more hope.
i dont see any.
mugging and going out to play.
to get you off my mind.

9:24 PM

♥ Wednesday, September 16, 2009

i should have known it earlier.
you dont bother.
there is no hope no hope no hope.
i should have got it into my brain long ago.
i should just give up.
anw promises dont matter to you anymore.
promises are meant to be broken.
this is so freaking tired.
plus life is fcuking sucky.
promos promos promos.
everyone telling me FCUKING PROMOS IS COMING!
den wad?!
okies i'll go for the exams.
den can i drop dead straight right after the last paper?!
fcuked up.
life has no real meaning for me.
MUG TILL I DIE!

why am i still so affected.
those pics shld not matter anymore.
its just a click.
and to delete everything.
pls do delete everything from my memory!
someone pls do can?!
everything!!!!!!!!!!!!

9:18 PM

♥ Tuesday, September 15, 2009

song by sylvester: 希望

我一直以来都守护在你身边
不懂你如何看得见
也只好静静靠在一边

你的笑容能让我开心一整天
只要一天没和你见面
我的心情不会好一点

时间已经不多我还有话很想说
隐藏在我心里不懂如何开口
我会很快就要走每一夜不算太多
简简单单希望你会懂

不能在一起也没关系
只少你懂我的心会在想你
那些回忆会永远抱着甜蜜

不管未来你会在哪里
我都不会忘记
我爱你你是我微笑的原因

只是希望你能比从前开心

credits: kaiting!

11:06 PM

♥

met char today.
ate lunch den went to talk talk at some place near basketball court.
nice chat.
needa someone who i can talk to bout my probs.
i dont seem that strong can.
but i will try to be.
talked to char..
its good that you have learnt to let go of her.
i strongly believe that you'll be happier cuz she's not worth and attitude sucks!
lol. seems like me too.. =x
hais i noe.
ger bad attitude is coming back.
but i'm trying to change alittle.
not late for sch and not taking early leave counted?
we want to get into some 'bad' company.
as in ppl who really wanna go party and go have some crazy fun.
yes i super need that.
anyone interested?
clubbing? xD
after promos barhs. sucks >.<
i guess i'm not as good as char.
i still cant let go.
guess i'll nvr will.
you are the best part of my memories.
nvr gonna erase it.
argh back to reality bitch!
its exactly 2 more wks to promos.
and i haven do a thing since ytd!
come on.
i'm gonna start now!
i hope you're working hard too.
pls do kays?
dont give up! jiayous!

10:22 PM

♥ Monday, September 14, 2009

long long day for me.
end sch at 505 den went to mx hse for pw till 8plus.
reached home 9plus lo.
i'm so freaking tired.
plus tt rather long bus ride..
thot bout loads of things.
now ger is so damn freaking tired!
where have my source of energy gone to..
anw me and kt waking at 3 to mug!
lets see if i can wake the pig!
muhahahas. provided i can wake. =x
i'll blog later to prove tt ger the pig can wake at such weird timings kies? :D
rahhhhhh why is zhong qiu jie on 3oct?!
promos lehs!
sians.. anw wanna go playyyyy again =x
pri sch gathering. lol.
lets see who will go barhs.

many memories going thru my brain.
i need you back.
but i'll leave it to fate.
i hope you are much happier now.
you muz be can..
you still matters to me.

11:20 PM

♥

Study at airport with Calvin sx and rq in the morning.
Went home earlier in the evening cuz i had dinner.
Grandaunt and uncle came from Indonesia.. So dinner with them.
3 whole hrs. W/out any studying..
So i had time to think bout stuff.
Didnt feel like doing anything when i reached home at 11pm..
Supposed to be slping now but cant seem to fall aslp.
Someone asked can rls last at dis age.
No doubts.
Yes its possible.
I believe in it.
I hope you've seen my sms.
From the start, i nvr expect any replies.
All i want to noe is tt you're fine and doing well.
I hope you dont avoid me pls..
ily. i cant forget.

12:03 AM

♥ Saturday, September 12, 2009

arghh i feel bad now.
haven touch abit of revision work today.
slack huh?
i'm gonna makeup for it tmr cuz i'll go airport again.
tt is the perfect place to mug :)
have been thinking alots today.
or rather since afew days back.
i dontnoe why.
imy.
promos coming soon.
work hard.

11:06 PM

♥ Thursday, September 10, 2009

didnt go esplanade lib with seniors today.
cuz of the screwed meal ytd. =x
anw today was more like shopping for me :D
bought my dress and pinkkkkk headphones <3333333!
now my headphones is my necessity when i study!
plus sweets :)
my latest wish: all j1s i noe will all get promoted! :D
i miss going to the airport..
ok i only didnt go for today -.-
have been spending more than 10 hrs a day dere.
i'm in love with tt place huh?! >.<
ger is idiot =x
ahhhhhhhh.
ok i scream for nth.
just tt i've wasted my night.
*look at the time*
arghhhhhh.
needa slp soon.
pw in sch at 8.
den meeting seniors for lunch at airport!
will be dere like till 10pm again :)
i'm gonna become mugger soon..
arghhhhh nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

11:02 PM

♥ Wednesday, September 9, 2009

Out since 10am.
Went to airport t3 and t2 to study with seniors!
Calvin, charles, shunxiong, rongquan and joey.
I will post those pics up soon on fb =x
Left dere at 10pm.
Yes i'm tired.
Very tired.. Good!
And i'm getting home later and later.
Aiya it dont matters cuz no one cares.
Overnight at airport seems a gd idea to me!
O.O

Plans for tmr.
Gonna finish chem kinetics and start on MATHS!
Meeting them at 9.
So i got to wake at 7plus..
Yawns..
*look at the time*

Sometimes I really wonder.
Heartbreakers appear everywhere.
Who are the right ppl.
There is no definite definitions.
I feel like giving up.
All dis waiting.
I'm sick of it.
But I cant let go of you.
You gave me too much memories to keep.

Promos stress.
I'm really trying hard to study.
But if I'm still gonna get results like wad i got for myes.
Its the end for me.
Screwed my life.

1:09 AM

♥ Monday, September 7, 2009

sudden emoness.
sudden love for chem.
dont ask me why.
cuz i dont wish to say.
attituded ><
i miss youuuuu
19 days has passed.
19 days!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
nvr feel so crazy freaky wadever.
its almost 3wks lehs..
very long :(
till now, i still cant accept wad has happen.
i cant.
mugging mood gone for a moment and i wanna stone.
have been studying hard..
trying to numb myself and to stop thinking.
i need a miracle.

arghhhh.
just rmb got wedding dinner on 2OCT!
sher's bday.
and promos period.
zzzz..
no time to shop for new dress!
hais but i want no thing except YOU!

10:30 PM

♥

Woke up at arnd 9.
Mainly cuz i am used to waking at dis time if dere's no sch.
Only I noe the reason why..
And oso wake cuz of my shocking/scary etc alarm ringtone!
LOL love game..
Nvr ever put tt!
Just get scare and get a terrible shock early in the morn. >.<
Met char at 10plus at macs to study till bout 4plus.
Sher, ning & desmond were dere awhile too.
But didnt talk much.
Freaking tired at tt time already.
Just finish dinner after i woke up.
Feel like giddygiddy..
Wthhhh :(
Got to continue study chemmm!
chemical bonding is taking hell loads of my time! -.-|
but i just wanna study hard and hopefully do well.
you're the last person tt i ever wanna disappoint.
ily. i miss you alots.
will you even miss me?

8:23 PM

♥

I really wonder if you still care.

12:04 AM

♥ Sunday, September 6, 2009

Supposed to meet sx at airport at 8!
But latelatelate..
So we met at 12 instead.
HAHA!
But someone came like almost 1 >.<
Den calvin and joey were dere toooo!
Hmm let me think..
Quite productive studying..
Chemical bonding is sossososososo damn difficult.
Trying to master it the whole day lo. :(
And i'm so in love with strawberry oreooooo! xD
Yeas so since 12 to 9plus i was hanging out at t3 and t2..
Lalalalas.
Its tiring lo..
But quite fun too!
Hahas.
Had dinner at t2 sakae!
<333333333
GOOD LUCK TO SENIORS FOR UR GP PAPER TMRRRR!
GET UR As!!!!

I thot I would see you dere.
But i didnt dare to go near tt place.
I dontnoe wad will happen if i see you now.
So i shld just avoid.
Started going to airport to study cuz of you.
But now no more.
Today is the 1st time I went dere w/out you.
Will it be like dis forever?
Hols is starting.
Make gd use of it to study and rest more.
Drink loads of water.
You cant fall sick now okies?
Take care of urself.
I believe you will do well.

I've got a new wish..
Thot of it when I was at airport just now.
Had the sudden urge of buying a ticket and fly to somewhere farfar away.
Stay away from this place for a good long time.
1yr 2yr 3yr?
I just feel like leaving this place.

11:43 PM

♥ Saturday, September 5, 2009

tiring day!
supposed to wake up at 630 and reach airport at 8.
but i woke late.
everyone woke late!
so didnt go cuz i had piano class.
think my skills are improving much more now.
too much free time lo.
so can spend some with my piano :(
den went to meet char at mac to study..
not very productive lo.
den went to lib to get some bks to read!
yes ger is reading!
LOL!
den went to greatgrandma hse eat..
den end up slping =x
i'm just very tired.
or maybe cuz i had nth to do.

plans for tmr.
waking at 730.
reach airport at 9!
muzmuzmuz!
studyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy! ><
muz finish at least half of chem tmrrrr!
I'm so in loveeeee with chemmmmm!
LOL!

wad happen.
did you not feel like replying me anymore.
hais i thot it didnt matter so much to me.
but it seems it still does.
i miss you.

11:36 PM

♥ Friday, September 4, 2009

KBOX with the gals today.
SHERYL and NINGWEI!! <333333
fun lo. although very tired.
they having hols but i just end sch ok??
so felt tireddddd
and my throat abit cannot take it le.
two kbox sessions.
after tt sher went back to celebrate her daddy bday.
HAPPY BDAY LO! :D
Me and ning went to Tamp1 to eateat.
So freaking crowded lo!
And we spent some time finding a place to have our dinner.
Den went to TM to walk awhile
Guess who I met.
SHUMING!
Goshhhh I so freaking miss her!!!!
Den continued to walk arnd and I bought a pretty case for my phone..
Pretty pretty!
Den home!
I'm so tired nowwwwwww
Was slping on the bus lo ><
Gonna rest early..
Wake up early and study hard!

Ohmygoshhhhh I'm so freaking happy now!
Like :D:)^_^
You initiated conver with me.
I'm really so damn happy happy HAPPYYYY!
I will study hard I WILL!
I promised you b4 and it will still be counted.
So i will study hard!

11:38 PM

♥ Thursday, September 3, 2009

YIPEEEEEEE MY CAST IS GONE GONE GONE!
but i still need to go for xray like a mth later.
supposed to be during promos.
crazy. so it is scheduled a wk later.
hees kbox tmr with sher and ning!
yes i just went ytd and i'm going again tmrrrrr! :D
hmm ppl dont worry so much lo.
i'm fine really fine.
i will jump arnd in sch to prove it okiessss?
i'm so happy tt the doc say the gap between my bones are closing up.
but no sports for me for one more mth.
zzzzz. i cant wait le can???
i wanna go bowling go play basketball nowwwww!
gosh why i so high i oso dontnoe why ><
i wanna go play bowling :(
i wanna go play basketball :(
i wanna run arnd :(
zzz abit emo liaos. -.-
everyone is happy for me.
but the person tt i want to share the news with wont even bother anymore.

bout ytd.
didnt go sch
had breakfast with char at tm mac.
den decided to study abit for promos to makeup for not going to sch.
den walk arnd TM and T-1.
den cab to ehub.
had lunch at seoul garden.
LOL we're lousy eaters.
the sight of meat now make me wanna vomit ><
den went kbox...
its like coldddddd like hellll! :(
walk arnd many places that reminded me of you.
alots. practically everything.
went into bowling centre to have a peek but its like you wont be dere.
we've been to so many places and ytd i went back to all those same places.
w/out you.

okies back to reality.
i just realise nxt wk is hols.
like dis morning.
LOL.
tmr is the dateline for eom.
i'm abit dead.
but i dont really care.
its like 7%..
i still got other stuff to do!
let me get thru tmr fast kies?
den let me enjoy myself at kbox for a night.
den i'll mug.
serious MUG!
i've started mugging le lo!
gonna throw everything into chem..
4chapters down.
7 more to go!

wish that a miracle would happen.
no i need 2!
i noe i'm greedy but let me have 2 plsssss
one is to go back to the past.
two is to let me promote can?
if not i'm really stuck.
study private sch?
poly?
go overseas?
i seriously dontnoe!

7:52 PM

♥ Wednesday, September 2, 2009

Got a call from mscheng.
EOM IS MADNESS CAN?!

anw didnt go sch today.
really pon lo.
went kbox with char.
practically spend the whole day with her.
was happy.
but not now.
eom screw my mood.
bought new shades!
fri gonna go K again!
tmr having checkup.
shld i even go sch?
hais.
i wanna get dis bloody cast off my foot.
i wanna go play basketball!
:(
miss you.

7:32 PM

♥ Tuesday, September 1, 2009

arghhhh!
28 days?!?!?!?
did i see something wrongly?!?!?!?

1:13 PM