Ger'sStory!

2010-06-21T23:10:00.003+08:00

many things happened this week.
and everything gotta do with someone.
idk where to start.
but i'm tired~

轨迹-周杰伦

怎么隐藏我的悲伤
失去你的地方
你的发香散的匆忙
我已经跟不上
闭上眼睛还能看见
你离去的痕迹
在月光下一直找寻那想念的身影
如果说分手是苦痛的起点
那在终点之前
我愿意再爱一遍
想要对你说的
不敢说的爱
会不会有人可以明白
我会发着呆然后忘记你
接着紧紧闭上眼
想着那一天会有人代替
让我不再想念你
我会发着呆然后微微笑
接着紧紧闭上眼
又想了一遍你温柔的脸
在我忘记之前
心里的眼泪
模糊了视线
你已快看不见

2010-06-14T22:48:00.002+08:00

Latest updates of my life.

On sat, i had no mentoring and piano lessons :)
So finally, i had a totally free sat for myself.
Decided to spend the day with mommy cause bro will be at tuition in the afternoon.
Didnt want her to be alone when i have the choice to spend some time together with her.
We went down to centrepoint to shop in the late afternoon.
I really love the tidbits at marks & spencer :)
Then we went to greatgrandma house for dinner.
Later that day, I realised joey was at central in the evening too.
Felt sad that we didnt have fate to meet lo.
Long time since I've met her.
The last time i saw her was during the mj choir concert :(

On sunday, i had whole 3 hours of bowling training.
Was damn tiring but I was damn happy also.
My strike rate was super high and my spare rate was slightly above average.
In conclusion, I'm so pleased with my performance ^^
Then went to some proshop near bugis for awhile then went home.
At night, i went to buangkok area to play bball with andrew.
The crazy half court cause the stupid rim so high.
I looked like one idiot ok! -,-
See the rim until my neck also can ache already.

TODAY!
Mommy took leave so we went to royal plaza on scotts for buffet lunch.
It was supposed to be one of the top hotels which had the best buffets.
But apparently its not!
Rating for the lunch buffet at royal plaza: 3 stars.
However, I strongly recommend ellenborough market cafe at swissotel.
Had high tea there once and its really nice :)
After lunch, we went to watch karate kid!
Yes its my second time watching this movie but its still very awesome!
Then we went to taka and tangs to shop for awhile.
After which bro and mom went back cause mom is going to see the doc.
Then i went down to plaza sing to wait for andrew.
Nice guy huh..
Make me wait then never turn up.
But for a good reason, so excused :)
Now home.. Really dont know if i can tahan until 230 to watch soccer.
Heehee. Dont be surprised.
I am a girl but i do watch soccer too!
Having piano lessons tmr!
Then no more plans cause lessons are like at noon.
In the middle of nowhere.
Ok that's all. :D

2010-06-11T22:39:00.006+08:00

信乐团- 原来

原来爱不能强求
越想拥有往往越会得不到
其实我们心里都知道

我也只能沉默
看着窗边下着绵绵夜雨
你到底要不要
为何不肯说明了

我看着你冷冷的微笑
像是对我说这不是我们的幸福
再走下去
是宽容还是结束
都一样残酷

我到现在终于才明白
我就算赢得了世界也会输给你
你的笑容
原来是最狠的报复

原来爱不能强求
越想拥有往往越会得不到
其实我们心里都知道

我也只能沉默
看着窗边下着绵绵夜雨
你到底要不要
为何不肯说明了

我看着你冷冷的微笑
像是对我说这不是我们的幸福
再走下去
是宽容还是结束
都一样残酷

我到现在终于才明白
我就算赢得了世界也会输给你
你的笑容
原来是最狠的报复

我已经没有退路
我原来已被你俘虏
爱情原来是你最伤人的毒

我看着你冷冷的微笑
像是对我说这不是我们的幸福
再走下去
是宽容还是结束
都一样残酷

我到现在终于才明白
我就算赢得了世界也会输给你
你的笑容
原来是最狠的报复

2010-06-11T22:22:00.003+08:00

Common tests are OVER!
Yeah like finally.. Those people who met me today will know how tired I am :(
From my cui face to my panda eyes to my pimple outbreak. Wth!
Celebrated kenny's birthday today..
HAPPY 17th! :)
Then a group of us including joyce, tianyew, joash and jinwen went down to plaza sing for lunch.
We had pepper lunch for lunch!
Oh we failed to get movie tics for karate kid at ps and the cathay.
So.. after some research on joash's laptop, we decided to head down to tiong bahru plaza.
Thought that we will get some really good seats but we end up being at the bottom 7th row.
The show was really nice! Everyone should go catch it.
I dont mind watching it again :)
And.. WHO IN THE HELL THREW THE TICS AWAY! :(
After the movie, I went to train back to hougang to meet sheryl, basil and desmond at hougang green for dinner.
Guess who I saw on the train! GLENN!
Haha I almost cant recognise him. Oops :X
Yeah after the heavy dinner, we went to another shop for a "second round" of dinner.
Was damn full so I wanted to take a walk home alone.
But failed.

Sometimes I really want to be alone and have a walk on my own.
I am quiet cause sometimes I really dont wish to talk.
Now that the common tests are officially over, I have nothing on my mind anymore.
That feeling of emptiness is coming back.
Tell me how. I cant stop missing you.

2010-06-10T17:03:00.003+08:00

What Hurts The Most- Rascal Flatts

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out

I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while even though
Going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm okay
But that's not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away

And never knowing
What could've been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I'm doing it
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still harder getting up, getting dressed, living with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade, give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
(Much to say)
And watching you walk away

And never knowing
What could've been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do, oh
Oh yeah

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
(To say)
And watching you walk away

And never knowing
What could've been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

Not seeing that loving you
That's what I was trying to do, ooo

2010-06-10T00:23:00.002+08:00

This morning, I did something that I have been stopping myself from doing so but i failed this time.
But I didnt regret it.
From your reply, I really dont know what you are thinking.
Are you feeling the same way as I am feeling?
I really miss you and all our memories.

Failed to start studying business law today :(
Went out with the MJ guys in the afternoon.
Mike and mingyang..
Pool bowling arcade then dinner.
Travis didnt come cause he was stuck at school.
We will meet up soon!
Holidays seem to be the best time to catch up with my friends :)

I shall wake up early tmr to start on blaw..
Its a must.
Last paper on fri.
Study hard~

Then train hard for 26 june!

2010-06-08T21:14:00.002+08:00

Say Goodbye-S Club 7

In the years to come
Will you think about these moments that we shared

In the years to come
Are you gonna think it over
And how we lived each day with no regrets

Nothing lasts forever though we want it to
The road ahead holds different dreams for me and you

Sometimes goodbye, though it hurts in your heart,
is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye, though it hurts,
is the only way now for you and me
Though it's the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every way
So say goodbye
But don't you cry
Cause true love never die

In a year from now
Maybe there'll be things
we'll wish we'd never say

In a year from now
Maybe we'll see each other
Standing on the same street corner, no regrets

Each and every end is always written in the stars
If only I could stop the world
I'd make this last

Sometimes goodbye, so it hurts in your heart,
is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye, so it hurts,
is the only way now for you and me
Though it's the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every way
So say goodbye (so say goodbye)
But don't you cry
Cause true love never dies

And when you need my arms to run into
I'll comfort you
Nothing will ever change the way I feel

Sometimes goodbye, though it hurts in your heart,
is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye, though it hurts,
is the only way now for you and me
Though it's the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every way
So say goodbye
But don't you cry
Cause a true love never dies

2010-06-08T13:20:00.002+08:00

I'm back at blogging!
Have been busy with my common tests for the past few days so I didnt have time to blog.
Two papers down..
Careless mistakes for maec.
For infa, I cant balance my accounts!!!! :@
Anw its over..
Gonna concentrate on blaw for this few days.
Last paper on friday then it will be freedom for me :)
Went out till quite late ytd.
Wanted to blog last night but i was too tired after the shopping crazyness I had.
Paper ended at 10am.
So amanda, joyce, jinwen, joash, zhehao and I went to dhoby to eat!
After lunch, we went to the cathay and watched prince of persia!
He's so handsome and HOT..
Hahaha all of us learnt a good lesson too.
Never to open your crumpler bag in the cinema.. Hahahah! :D
Oh and kenny text me during the movie and asked me who gave him those lollipops.
Hahahaha that moment me and amanda was laughing lahhh!
Cause we wanted to cheer this emo boy so we thought of getting him lollipops.
Then before exam, we randomly just put those lollipops on his table while he was talking.
He was actually thinking where all the lollipops come from! HAHA.
Ok after the movie..
We slack outside cathay cause it was raining.
Guys crapping alot of jokes and all.
And one of the awesome ones which kept me laughing like mad was...
Have you ever wonder how crickets find their way to your house?
TAKE THE LIFT :)
Imagine that and it is damnnnn funnyyyy ok!
After that, everyone went back while Joyce and I went to far east to shoppppp!
It was real mad shopping cause I spend like way above $100. :X
But still fun and feeling so great lah!
Hahaha happy with all the stuff that I've bought :)
For today, gonna mug for blaw lo.
Then will be able to meet the guys tmr :)
Bowling tmr ^^

2010-06-02T13:06:00.003+08:00

I will be blogging quite often.
And I am doing so now :)
Just reached home from the most ridiculous lesson ever in this sem.
LMS which stands for life management skills.
Sounds funny right.
I'm having this lesson every wed and its my only lesson on weds.
The duration of this lesson is three hours.
But my teacher is very nice and he will always let us off in two hours or less.
Seriously, this lesson is damn boring to the extent that I am feeling sleepy within half an hour :X
So today, it was raining when i woke up at 7am.
Then, I was thinking if I should go to school cause I am feeling too lazy to get off my bed.
Managed to get off my bed at 720 to go to school because I want to know my LMS test results!
Took bus 151 to school and guess what.
The journey was 1.5 hours.
I dont know if there were jams on the way to school cause I was sleeping.
Yeah sleeping all the way..
Was late for the lesson for 45mins. & after another 45mins, the lesson ended already!
Conclusion: I travel three hours to school for a 45mins lesson :)
My test results are not as good as I have expected.
19/30 for the test and 9/10 for the elearning part.
Disappointed with myself.
But yeah, I'm gonna work hard for the CTs.
Maec, infa and blaw.
I'm gonna master all this!

Had the excel presentation yesterday.
It was our class's first presentation and it was really fun.
Despite all the blunders and lots of accuracy mistakes we have made in our project, I think it was a great learning experience. :)
After that, I had business management lecture which was actually boring.
But the teacher had made it fun and interesting cause of those videos and HALL OF FAME!
Our gay couple in TA22 is famous now. Haha.
Then she asked two questions which i thought was really good questions.
Q1: Do you think gay couples should adopt children?
The response was mainly yes.
Q2: Is it ok with your parents are a gay couple?
This time, the response was no.
Conflicting responses haha.
Then went to ourspace with kenny and guys to print notes.
Argh remind me of kenny who ps us!
We were kind to wait for him lor..
Then he so fast zao already. Tsktsk..

On the way home, I met mom on the bus and we went to have dinner together.
Pepper lunch :)
Then we did abit of shopping and went home at 8plus.
Reached home and started msning all the way till one plus in the morning with TA22.
Webcamming & msning with TA22 is (L)
I love TA22 :)

2010-06-01T00:32:00.002+08:00

Its the first day of June and I shall blog!
Hope to make this a habit again.
Cause the stress in me is reaching its max and i cant take it any longer.
Just came home like two hours ago.
Head down to my fave place t3 to meet sheryl and basil to study.
Had popeyes for dinner which is very very sinful.
Must have healthy meals for the rest for this week!
As usual, bought gummy bears cause i love them :)
I saw many familiar faces there including one unexpected person!
Tan Si Hui. I was so happy to see her!
Brought back lots of memories when she first joined 2F.
Then she was in the same class as me in 3G & 4G!
Saw people like travis and danial too!
Wanted to meet joey but left earlier..
Went to tamp one for frolick.
I love it. :)
For studies, i only studied half of what is required for maec.
I need to buck up!
I'm starting to feel like i'm becoming a person without any emotions.
Esp after sch.. I think i was like a stone all the way today.
Partly cause of stupid cramps.
Seriously, girls suffer every month :(
On the way home from tampines, I just remembered the last time I was there with someone.
And it just kept me occupied all the way. Sighs.
Why is it that its possible for others but not for us?
But then again, with school like this i cannot cope.
And now, I dont know why I am thinking about it.
Some feelings will never change but its just not the right time now.
I just hope fate will help a little, please.
I'm missing you so much. Perhaps you'll never know.
CT gonna start on sat and I just started studying today.
I am disappointed with myself already.
I said and promised some people I will study hard but I'm not.
You know what, this sounds silly. But i dont want to disappoint you.
Cause the next time when you are going to talk to me which i dont know when, you might ask about my school life.
And I just want to tell you i'm doing well and not to make you worried.
Ok all this sounds damn silly.
Having excel presentation tmr.
Wish me luck~

2010-05-14T20:35:00.005+08:00

2010-05-14T19:58:00.002+08:00

This week has passed super fast.
Was it because I was real busy or it was your presence that make me feel that time is passing too fast?
Yeah went to fep today to do some shopping with manda and qishan.
We will have monthly shopping events ok!
And the next time manda will shoppp more to makeup for today!
Anw me and qishan ttly failed to restrict shopping too much :X

Went to the airport on wed cause IS is a short lesson and i had a most crappy test ever.
Anger management case study -.-
The way to the airport brought back loads of memories.
Yeah so it really kept me thinking for quite awhile.
But for some, i'm no longer thinking about it.

Hmm now to explain the most horrible thing i did in school on thur.
Omg i freaking skipped a lecture just to go home and prepare myself for a concert.
Yeah.. But the main purpose was the concert and ya.. not for anyone.
Get it right, wont you?
I dont know if you've gotten the wrong idea.
But you definitely meant more to me.
Wore heels twice in a week and blisters are visiting me!!!
Damn it..
First time was during the scholarship interview that i had on monday.
A super fun interview.
Joke on that morning cause my neighbor thought i was going to work -.-
I dont look that old ok!!

I'm feeling the stress coming to me.
Am I working hard enough now?
I dont want to regret and waste a few more years of my life.
I want my degree for acc and law.
I want my piano dip.
I want it all.
All or nothing.

2010-05-10T21:41:00.003+08:00

Many many things happening in my life recently.
Ok not quite a lot..
Just a little from everyday.
Since it has been a long time since i've blogged.
Bowling was great and i can see my skills improving.
But it seems so difficult for me to produce that kind of standard at competitions.
I really dont know why.
And everytime it will just give everyone a good shock and disappointment.
Life at school was good too.
Great friends and maybe good timetable..
But time i wake.. Hmm not that good!
6am everyday maybe except Tue.. Not that fun!
I got so much to blog about..
But I just cant think of anything now..
Damn it.
Ok my brain went B-L-A-N-K at the right time this round :D
Luckily it was not during my interview..
Miracle sort of happened to me.
But i really dontknow is it a good sign or a bad one.
You left me with a confused state of mind.
I really dontknow what i can do.

Totally in love with the color of my hair in this pic. But it dont really look like that in rl :(

QS, Ger, Manda <3

2010-05-03T22:42:00.002+08:00

Finally I'm having the urge to blog.
Third week of school has just started and I'm seriously feeling damn screwed up.
Time is never enough for me.
& I just cant find my mood to mug!
Tell me how???
Baby elijah is down with a high fever.
Feeling damn worried for him but I cant see him :(

Hmm wz will never know about this.
But.. She's just not worthy of you.
I really hope you will stop all those emo stuff that you have been doing.
Be a man can?
She chose to hide and go away from you.
So all the more you should be strong!

Ger is a blessed girl.
Cause I have a lot of people who love me.
Thanks to all my faves and my new friends in np :]
You know who you people are..
I dont need to mention names!
I'm glad I know what I want in life now.
As for you, I leave it to fate.
Those small things that might not be significant to you meant a great lot to me.
Just be happy :D

Ger wants to bowl, play basketball and go to the airport to study!
Is it possible this weekend? :D

2010-04-23T22:59:00.003+08:00

我不相信你心中现在她最美

你不会你不会你不会

把我们的爱踩碎

我不相信你口中会讲出后悔

你不会你不会你不会

不心疼我拒绝被看见的泪

2010-04-12T17:33:00.000+08:00

不要吻我只要抱着我
不要爱我做我的亲人
把手借我一天一分钟
做我最亲密的亲人
不是谁的情人谁的某某某

2010-03-18T23:44:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 2YRS & 8MONTHS ANNIVERSARY TO SHERYL LEOW! :D

Had a great day out with her.
Went to Waraku at Heeren for lunch.
Then went to cine e2max for movie.
Watched Wild Child.
Its quite nice & that guy looks not bad :X
Totally love that place except that its cold!
Took a bus down to dhoby & went bunk for two hours :)
Did a little shopping and had a great dinner too!
Hope darling finds the backpack she wants soon!

2010-03-16T20:48:00.002+08:00

I'm so gonna become a full-time pig :x
Sleeping at least 12 hours a day plus having late dinners recently.

NAG started yesterday.
Was looking forward to it but not anymore.
Had an average of 164.5 ytd & 128 today.
Seriously wtf.
Performance screwed up plus I strained my muscle like never before.
Pro huh. Totally wrong time for this to happen to me!
Anyway I'm feeling damn bad cuz I screwed up my doubles match.
Sorry to my partner.
Ok she wont see this -,-
Enough of such stuff that makes me pissed off.

I miss my dear & hope to see him soon!
But I will be sensible and understand that he's busy :)

2010-03-15T00:14:00.003+08:00

Hi all! I love blogging now! :D

Woke up early and went to NUS open house with my dear.
Haha went there with half-sleeping faces :x
Only went for a talk which I could not stop myself from constant yawning!
Then bused to plaza singapura for late lunch at HK cafe.
I am so full that I feel like vomiting all the way till dinner time x,x

After lunch, we went to IT show at Suntec Convention Centre!
Bought some laptop accessories and my earphones ^^
Sx and I got the same earphones haha :D
Yeps met up with sx's corporal too.
Waited damn long for this guy canzz.
Leg pain & someone epic ass pain -.-|
Haha both of them together are sure rubbish crap and everything sia.
But very fun too :D

Met with sheryl and basil in the evening for birthday boy's dinner.
Had dinner at waraku.
Waited quite long for Anna.
My primary school mate!
Okies i dont know why i cant rmb at all :x
We had a light dinner then went to bugis.
Wanted to go to this bar but it was closed.
Disappointment :(

I will learn to treasure what I have now.
Cause you make me feel blessed.

NAG competitions starting tomorrow evening!
I will try hard to meet my dear's target :D
I wont disappoint you.

2010-03-13T23:35:00.002+08:00

Ger just ended her busy Sat!
I didnt get to slp last night cuz of someone + i was studying.
That explains Ger's bad mood & temper!
Was doing last min studying for my theory exam this afternoon. :x
So nice to be 'mugging' again lol.
Went out at 9plus for my bowling trg.
Super tiring and i cant seem to focus.
Played badly for two games & got scolded. Wtf.
Then i went to Kaplan at dhoby area for my theory exam.
Exam was fine except tt i realized i need to improve on my italian terms.
Damn it :x
Anw i seriously cant sit down for 3 whole hrs for the paper lo!
So i left asap after i finished + checked the paper :D
Dinner with family to celebrate grandma's 68th bday at boonkeng..
Haha i was sitting with a dog under the table beside me for the whole night!
Thank goodness it was very obedient :D
Okies that's all.
Plans for tmr.. Gonna go to nus with sx.
Celebration for basil in the evening :)

2010-03-12T22:04:00.010+08:00

Here's the post that I promised! :D

Hahas I had a great time since last week & I didnt really have time to blog.
Esp when I dont have to go to work & faves are having their hols! :)

Hmm now let me recall what I've been doing recently..

Went to the movies with sx last wed.
We watched Dear John and its quite nice! :)

Had our sentosa trip on thursday!
Like finallyyyyy.. We are going there cuz sher gotta rebond her hair. Haha.
Had a great time with sher, ning & des.
For the first time we bought too little chips! Argh.
And I rmb there was this irritating guy who was smoking at the beach!
Stupid smell woke me and sheryl up from our nap :x
For dinner we had steamboat dinner at vivo!!
Sx came for dinner while basil ps us :(
When will we have a nice 6 family dinner huh?!

Fri was results day for the seniors!
Yeps me too.. But I still dontnoe my result canzz.
Dontnoe whose fault oops :x
Haha it dont really matters though.
Glad for those who did well esp someone :)
For the rest dont give up easily kkays!!
Everyone faces setbacks in life.
Met sx at his hse after he collect his results and went to tampines for dinner :)

Sat. Met sx after my piano lessons.
Yeps specially went to meet him to go and collect something near spore flyer :)

Monday and Tuesday were the best days of this week.
Haha for some reasons.. Sx took mc on one day and took leave on another!
Went to meet him to see doc on mon den went for breakfast and slacked at his hse.
Den we went to meet sheryl and basil at marina square for movie and dinner.
Omg I'm so gonna not be late anymore!!
Watched Alice in Wonderland!
Very nice. But the cat is scary canzz.

On Tue, we went cycling at pasir ris park!
Super fun :D
Den went to lan at katong :)
After that, we went to tampines for dinner cuz sx gotta go for his driving lessons.
Envy envyyyyy! :X

Ytd! Met with sheryl and basil to go to IT fair.
Sx was like late for 2 freaking hours!
Cuz of some meeting :(
Sheryl and basil are biased!!!
Why no punishments for him siaaaaa!!!

2010-03-01T23:26:00.008+08:00

Long time since I've blogged.
I'm lazy. Yes i didnt deny!
Went out with sheryl and basil on fri to slack plus dinner at fep.
Last day of work at sgcc & it was the last day of exams for sheryl.
Worth celebrating! :D

Out at bugis with sx, sheryl and basil on Sat afternoon.
Shopping time :)
Quite a good day but it ended quite badly.
Seriously screwed. Plus the guys left early :(
However, there are loads of pretty pics taken on that day!

Went to bro's competition on sunday morn.
& ger woke up at 730!
Serious madness ;x
He didnt perform well. Yes disappointment!
Nbm we'll do btr coming sunday.
PBC selection test. Jiayou ger :)

Went vivo with sheryl today.
Tried to look for potential workplace but i think failed.
I rather wait till my agents contact me..
I need a good rest now.
Tired after a day of walking.

I want to improve my piano + bowling skills.
I'm not going to let anyone look down on me anymore.
Because one failure dont bring me down.
And you can never judge me.

2010-02-25T14:35:00.002+08:00

Glkw is at work now.
But due to the extreme boring environment here, I have decided to blog!
& also to make up for not blogging ytd.
It was sx's fault kkays! :X
I was angry canzz.
I wanted to blog after taking a nap for around less than half hr.
But that super power nap last me till 4am! -.-
However, I'm not so petty!
& I received some really sweet messages in the morning ^^
Den i dozed off and only wake at 840!
As usual, Glkw is late again.
Nevermind my record for this job was being late for two hours.
Anw sheryl suggested several activities that we can do and i'm so looking forward to those days!
Kite-flying, ice-skating, rollar blading, cycling, shopping, movies etc :)
Oh I'm gonna go to the zoo soon tooo!
With my fave group of ppl :D
Hoping to get a new job soon and also to work tgt with sheryl!
Will share the good news when that happens!

2010-02-23T23:54:00.002+08:00

Arghh super late for work this morning.
I just cant force myself to wake up and get off my bed! :X
I need an alarm clock that do not have the snooze function..
Does such a thing exist in spore?

Anyway i was waiting for work to end since noon.
But for some particular reason, time has been passing very slowly.
Despite the fact that i have been using the internet at work recently if it does not disconnect at random times.
Met sx at cathay right after work to catch Little Big Soldier :)
Quite a nice movie with some funny moments.
I really enjoyed myself today.
Thanks my dear :)
Cant wait to see you soon! <3

2010-02-22T22:04:00.002+08:00

My first post in FEB! :D

Pleased with the new look of my blog.
Did it myself without anyone's help kkays! :x
Hmm loads of stuff happening recently.
Dontnoe where to start x.x
School's gonna start in April.
Yeps its still damn long.
& I cant wait for school to start because I'm already super bored of working!
This week is gonna be the last week for this job :)
I dont wanna get scolded anymore for no reasons by some idiots!
Hoping to get a new job tgt with sheryl.
Den we can finally go to work tgt <3!
All the best to the poly people having exams now.. :D
Its freedom after this wk!
Okies i shall blog often from now onwards :)
Im super tired for now.
Woke at 6plus today!
Yes!!! 6plus in the morning..
Haha cant wait for tmr :)
<3 :D

2010-01-17T00:54:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 30TH MONTH ANNI TO SHERYL LEOW!

it have been two and a half yrs since then.
i seriously think our maths failed horribly x.x
you noe i noe ;x
anw we'll get something tgt soon!
rmb to think of something alrights.
but pls no couple lab stuff anymore :)
and you btr be honoured im ur first super long ''rls'' can!! :D
haha i'll miss you loads since you have 5 more projs to complete :(
hope ur hols will come earlier.
if not im sure to look for you during cny ;P
do work hard for academics kies!
i'll be ur mental support :)

2010-01-17T00:49:00.003+08:00

Dinner with bear on thur! HAHA.
Only thing I cld rmb was tt sinful dinner ><
& I got my LG phone back too.
Got to say tt im quite pleased with the efficient service :)

Metup with SHERYL LEOW on fri.
Supposed to only have dinner at plaza sing.
But we end up shopping at cotton on & got the 910 movie.
'Its Complicated' is nice.
Quite hilarious :))
It was the first time that both of us went home so late?
Like tgt & the first time so late for both of us.
Im honoured :)

Today was busy with bowling piano & swimming!
HAHA yes swimming.
Finally i got to swim without goggles.
Its really terrible.
At one time, I really thot my contact lens disappeared & I cld not see a thing ><
Blindness :(
However its still fun with char!
More swimming & gym & running sessions plss! :D

2010-01-11T22:38:00.003+08:00

Summary since last thur :)
Met char and basil after work to go for arcade+dinner!
Had loads of sinful food and went to play ID5.
I think i'm sorta addicted? ;x
Of course i'm not such a addict like B!
Ohya if i didnt meet char, it wld not noe tt she's going overseas the nxt day! TSK!

Fri! A self-declared day off for me!
Haha i took leave to go for NP open hse!
Met with Gavin den looked for Ning&Des to bring us arnd.
Our personal school guide :)
Haha i'm still mad over acc! ^^
Acc and bfs and international business + BOWLING!
Went to harbourfront to have lunch and shop arnd :)

Sat. Bowling training was great!
I learnt loads of stuff.
Gotta train harder so that i can get into the sch team in poly.
Really worried that the standard of bowling in poly will be damn high x.x
Having my grade6 theory exam in midmarch.
Facing some trouble huh.
I dont even have time to finish my homework ;x
But its alrights theory can last min.
Practical last min CMI!
Greatgrandma bday dinner at ecp long beach.
Had quite of a crowd and 5 babies haha.
Dinner was not bad and i'm glad this yr everyone came. (except for two)
Hope the feeling of four generations tgt will make her happy.
And i'm the youngest generation okies!
So conclusion, im not old!

Sunday: Went all the way to vivo to send my lg renior for repair.
And the worst thing is that everything in the phone will be deleted.
Most of the stuff can be saved but sms cannot :(
Feel like killing my phone.
But its a non-living thing after all.
Will only get back my phone in 1-2 wks time.
Meanwhile im using my super lousy se w810 :(
I wanna get a new phone.
SE X2 or X10 seems nice ^^
Met sheryl basil & kiatwei and orchard.
And im sorta late for like 45 mins? ;x
Haha went to fareast to shop arnd and went to ion too.
Slacked at hk cafe and decided to go to cine to rent a chamber to watch movie as everyone felt tired already.
The worst thing is why do we have to watch orphan?!
Rahhhhh! Its the most horrible thing ever.
Plus the two guys who screamed for nth :(
Stop scaring me.
I dontwant to watch anymore scary movies pls!
Played ID5 and dinner at subway :)

Some things are not the same.
Jc ppl have started sch.
Im going to poly.
Different life from now onwards.
We will nvr be the same anymore.

Troubles & more troubles.

2010-01-06T23:33:00.003+08:00

Why are there so many troubles on Earth?

First, I still havent got my pay from this agent who said that I'll get it when Jan comes.

Hello Jan is here for 6days already!!

And do I need to chase after you for my pay that I worked for?!

Second, another agent promised me to mail me time sheets that will reach me today.

But yet, it has not reached me yet.

Why do people not honor what they have said when these are just simple tasks?

Zzzz.

And now I realised that the open house for polytechnic is during the nxt few days.

But I'm working!

Pls do pray that they will approve my leave on friday.

Cuz my Sat is seriously filled up!

Bowling piano & greatgrandma bday dinner.

& I still havent prepare a present and think of what to wear for the dinner!

Seriously facing a lack of time.

If only there is something that cld extend the duration of a day.

Meeting charlotte & basil tmr for dinner and arcade :):)

2010-01-05T21:55:00.002+08:00

I swear this feeling is so irritating and haunting!

Please leave me aloneeee! :(

I dontwant to feel like this anymore.

I cant wait for school to start for me.

& im in serious need for more sleep time!

Maybe some pills will work.

I hate insomnia!

Miss loads of ppl
sheryl ningwei desmond basil charlotte shunxiong joey rongquan kiatwei zhiwei
& the list carries on and on..

2010-01-04T20:49:00.003+08:00

This is gonna be my first post of 2010! ;D

Thanks to everyone who had wished me ytd.
Very appreciated :)

And I had a super great time with the grp at sentosa tooo!
Great place plus great ppl :)
Sheryl, Basil, Ningwei, Desmond! <33!
Im in love with swimming in the sea..
Really enjoyed myself loads.
But wont know when I'll meet them again.
Cuz they are back to school :(
I'll miss you!

Anw started work today at SGCC.
Its alrightttt..
But boring lah x.x
Need a more interesting job cannn!

Love dont make ppl blind but jealousy do.

2009-12-19T15:21:00.007+08:00

I'm finally back from korea on monday!

Had lots of fun esp at the theme parks and at the ski resort.
Skiing is so awesome! I didnt fall at all! Heehees.
Shopping can nvr be enough..
Though the cosmetics part is super over.
Bought too much at Faceshop x.x
Anw i love korean food!! ;D

Went out with sheryl and the 3 guys on thursday.
Watch the storm warriors with S den met the guys for L4D2!!
Haha im seriously addicted to tt game.
It can be so fun..
Since im too free.. I can go play often!
Wanna be good at tt game ;p

FRI! Ning's bday.
Went to D's hse with S to give N a surprise.
It was not totally a surprise cuz N guessed something was not right..
Stupid D's fault huh ;x
Wad macs delivery thing when S is the one on the phone -.-
Went town to have lunch and movie..
Yeps movie again.
Assassins and bodyguards!
Quite a nice show..
L4D2 again at night. HAHA! ;D

Realised tt both movies were chinese shows?? >.<

I want more l4d2 sessions!
I want more shopping!
I want more movies!

;D

Indoor theme park at Lotte World

Outdoor theme park at Lotte World

Christmas Deco at Everland theme park
Wanyu & Me

LV bear in the teddy bear museum

Ski Resort

Taking the cable car up to Dragon Peak

Dragon Peak! I'm above the clouds :)

Ginseng Chicken ;D

ME! ^^

2009-11-29T19:13:00.003+08:00

Its being a long time since i have updated my beloved blog. Heh shall update some latest happenings in my life during the past few days. But first, the most impt thing is that i have gotten my ipod touch!! Weeeeee!! ^^

Thur-- Met up with sheryl after work tgt with kw zw and hk. Went to pastamania for dinner. Finally had a gd dinner ;D den went to play l4d for awhile.. Best game ever lo!! Me and sher agree that its even btr den audi!!

Fri-- No work day!! So thankful for it. Met sheryl again!!! So glad to see her. Wanted to watch 2012 but had no gd seats so we watched a christmas carol instead. Met up with seniors at expo at 7 and the gd guys made me wait for a freaking long 40mins!! Pro huh.. Zz. Budden still glad to see them. Bear cal tofu and shawn! Oh and i bought my earpiece too. Pretty color :)

Sat-- Full day of bowling at kovan and mount faber. Consequences to bear.. Skin tear :(

TODAY-- L4D with sheryl zw kw hk!!! Awesome grp of ppl!! Lunch at subway!! Den spend the afternoon with the zombies. Heehees i wanna go lan again soon!!!! Joke of the day is still darn funny.. Cant stop laughing whenever i think of it.. Zz dumbo ger >.<

2009-11-14T23:02:00.000+08:00

Woke up early and went to jurong to watch bro's competition.
Quite a good experience..
First time masters for a competition.
I want to achieve such results too..
But where's my chance?
Anw I've got a new guy idol for bowling..
Though he's only in lower sec -.-
Felt so tired all the time and my back is still aching..
Cant deny the fact tt I'm actually aging >.<
Nvr stopped thinking of you..
I miss the past and everything you've done for me..
Wants you back badly cuz ger really needs you..
I'm gonna go running tmr!
Hopefully it wont rain.. x.x
LOVE THE TAKO AT ION!

2009-11-13T23:13:00.002+08:00

Friday 13th..
Nvr thot tt it would be really bad till now.
Just had a bad quarrel with someone.
Feel so much to leave dis place.
I hate dis place.
Couldnt uds why my tears came falling down.
Maybe I'm still not as strong as i thot.
You're still the one tt came into my mind.
Have been relying on you so much.
I got to change.
I want to be the strong ger.
But its so difficult.
Cuz the fact is tt i still miss you.
It just didnt change a single bit.
I wonder how are you.
I miss you.
Everytime you enter my brain i cant help but feel upset.
I thot my tears have dried up but it didnt.
I noe its not worth it and i noe dere are no more hopes left.
Just let it be. I'm like this.

2009-11-12T20:34:00.002+08:00

very long time since i've blogged.
working has taken so much of my time.
and i really feel tired.
although its not as bad as compared to the times during promos.

got to know some nice ppl at work.
not bad lah.
make my time at work quite fun! ;D

i wanna have more things to do..
too much free time only means that i've got more time to think bout other things.
its over its gone.
i noe i shld stop thinking bout it.
but its just so difficult for me to do so.
i cant let go of the past totally yet.
maybe i just need more time.
you left too much memories for me.
too much for me to forget.
i guess i shld stop wasting time on rls.
serious. i dont see the pt anymore.
its too complicated.
i just want my life to be simple.
that's all.

you're really special.
i like you. more den a normal friend.
but you will nvr noe.
and i nvr will want you to noe.

went out with sheryl on sunday..
shopping was great with her!
gonna look forward to our nxt shopping trip tgt ;p
i will miss you.
study hard alrights!
i hope we'll meet up veryvery soon.

karaoke on tue with char and basil was not bad too.
haven met up with char for very long..
ever since i start work.
hope we'll meet tmr to go running.

i'm finally free to do wad i want.
no more checkups for me anymore.
i can officially run jump and everything!

maybe i am enjoying the freedom of being single.
maybe i'm not.
just let things remain like that for the time being.
i'm tired.
of everything.
cant help but miss you.
i noe i shldnt.

2009-11-03T22:08:00.002+08:00

started work since last thur.
not bad though its veryvery boring.
nice ppl dere tooo ;D
but many left already..
i guess fate is making a big fool out of me!
damndamndamn >.<
i will stop waiting!
super determined already.
ger is strong.
will nvr wait for things tt is totally impossible already.
so gonna face the reality.

how to say..
ilikeyou :(

2009-10-29T22:31:00.002+08:00

First day at work!!
Not tiring. But boring lahhhhhhhh ;x
Hope to work with the guys tmr..
Noisy and fun bunch!

Too much time for me to think about things in the past.
I miss you.. too much too much.
All dis waiting is so tiring.
You are happy now.
So everything will be worth it.
I will get over it.

2009-10-28T01:12:00.002+08:00

went pool with char and basil at the usual place.
a piece of skin went off my finger while playing..
lol i too ''pro'' -.-
its still painful.. till now :(:(
dinner at compass pt!
subway for the second day ;D
argh got to admit tt i lose to basil at initial D very badly today.
hand was hurting like mad after pool..
i dontnoe why :'(
i feel so bored.
i want a job.
i miss you.
insane me.
damn myself.
i'm crazy.
pig too much.
slack too much.
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
i'm mad.
yesssss send me to imh plsssssss ;p

2009-10-23T22:16:00.000+08:00

Falling sick again and again.
Tt explains my tiredness and horrible headache :(
Still cant fall aslp.
I'm thinking of you.. Wad bout you?

2009-10-22T23:43:00.002+08:00

out the whole day with char to look for jobs.
UOB plaza is a super cool place.
went up to 56th floor! :D:D
tiring after all the walking and the freaking hot weather.
both of us got quite pissed at some pt too.
third time. super failure.
met mom and auntie J after their work and went to shop at plaza sin.
finally got my first set of formal office wear.
cool and nice..
but i really look weird ><
i'm really tired now..
baby i miss you loads.

2009-10-20T01:43:00.000+08:00

Nine more hours b4 i officially withdraw from sch..
It really means alots to me.
Seems to lose loads of stuff.
Things will just go back to how it is b4 i entered college.
Met new ppl but lost some of them too.
Went to college and lost some ppl too.
Going to college and leaving college both give me lots of regrets.
I really hope life can be better to me.
Hope I'll see all the seniors tmr..
At least one last time in sch.
I'm sorry to the bowling team too..
And i guess if going to college and bowling brought us tgt.. Now i guess nth is left.
I'm out of college.
Its the end of everything I'm wishing for.
You'll nvr turn back for me.
2 months since then. You would have forgotten bout everything.

2009-10-19T00:23:00.002+08:00

slacking and pigging for the whole day.
i really hope it wont be like this anymore for the nxt few days.
i wanna go for some interviews!
if not my life will be really meaningless.
slept till almost one today. incredible record for this yr -.-
and slept again in the afternoon for 2 hrs plus.
i conclude tt the promos i really draining. :(

every little thing happening arnd me will set me thinking of someone.
everything in the past.
i wonder wad will be in my future.
i guess you will nvr think of me anymore.
but you nvr leave my mind b4.
everything is still the same for me.
i still feel ur presence.
i miss you terribly everytime something reminds me of you.
this feeling nvr goes away.

2009-10-18T00:23:00.003+08:00

Thur--Went to the movies with joey!
She waited for me for almost 3 periods :D
Rushed off to TM after i ended my day.
Yes rush! We ran dere!
Got to TM in less than 30mins.
And bought tics and food within 10mins or less..
Den we were in the cinema!
How cool :D
Watched Julie&Julia.
Nice show.. Loads of food too!
Joey and I wanted to cook for loadloads of ppl!
HAHAHAHAHA if you ever dare to eat :X
Cook for bear?? Haha.

Fri-- Decision to withdraw from sch is finalised.
Nth else can change my mind and I wont regret it.
I've thot thru very carefully.
And I really hope ppl arnd me will give me their support and not try to discourage me anymore.
My confidence level is low enough already :(
After the damn promos..
Went lunch with sheryl at subway!
My second time of the wk :)
Den went to her hse..
Guess wad.. Both of us are pigs.
And we took afternoon naps for one hour!!
Den met basil at kovan to play pool.
I muz say tt he's really pro in it.
Budden I WIN BASIL IN INITIAL D!!!
TWO GAMES!!!!!!! :D
And I'm using AT. -.-
Bused down to ikea to have early dinner and walked arnd.
I have the urge to makeover my rm!!!
Change of plan.. and we went to TM instead of expo.
Watched surrogates at century square!
Its a really nice show though some parts are abit disgusting.
Fake robots ><

Today-- Woke up by my mom and rmbed tt i didnt have piano lesson!
It is a public hol!
How blur can i be.. Zz.
Went to bowl in the afternoon..
I think I really have lesser stress now.. Or am i venting my stress out?
Average of 5 games was 161.
Quite good for me..
Esp after not training for a good long period of time.
Haha i'm so happy now.
But I wont tell you why! :P

cuz you nvr leave my mind.

2009-10-17T01:46:00.000+08:00

I miss my bestest memories in life.

2009-10-14T22:34:00.000+08:00

just went to tell mom tt i am preparing to go to poly.
since its almost 100% that i will be retained.
yes if i'm not retained, i'm gonna treat sheryl to 3 good meals!
i know mom has been thinking very highly of me in every aspect.
but somehow at this point, i failed very badly.
like wad she said, i am wasting one whole yr of my life.
but cant she just accept it that i am just not suitable for jc anymore.
i've really tried my very best.
after wad happened during mid-yrs, i've told myself and promised ppl that i'll work really hard for promos exams.
i really did! but nth is achieved.
my promos results is still as bad as mid-yrs.
she just dont uds cuz she nvr really see me studying at home.
yah so i'm rather sure tt i wanna head towards poly now.
there's no pt retaining one more yr when i'm unsure if i can promote nxt yr.
i really cannot stand my mom.
giving every single excuse tt she can find to explain my failure dis time.
i am accepting the fact tt i cant do it after putting so much hard work.
so why muz she interfere when she's not the one studying?
she is just my mother in status.
i may sound rude.
but the fact is I AM THE ONE WHO IS STUDYING.
I AM THE ONE WHO REALLY KNOW IF I HAVE PUT IN EFFORT.
i really hate her for stating some crappy reasons tt she think that have resulted in my failure and also the decision to go to the poly.
i really hate it.
why muz she remind me of the pain that i've been trying so hard to forget.

i know you wont ever be there for me anymore.
i really hope you will do well.
imy.

2009-10-13T23:17:00.002+08:00

exam results are mostly out already.
its as horrible as myes.
but i really tried my best.
for those who think tt i had too much distractions.
dis is wad i still get despite mugging like a crazy idiot.
just accept it.
dont give me any crappy reasons tt i've not been studying hard cuz i'm wasting my time on other stuff.
maybe i'm just not suitable to study such stuff.
retain or go poly.
its not cfm yet.
however i'm sure that i dont dare to guarantee tt i will be able to make it if i choose to be retained.

some stuff are nvr meant to be said.

2009-10-12T22:06:00.001+08:00

many things happened today.
i guess its just life. life is like tt.
reflected the whole day.
conclusion: i'm much stronger den before.
nth is gonna bring me down.
when i fall, i will stand up again.
its something tt i've learnt from someone.
and i really admire her for it.
we are who we are.
dont bother changing us.
like me/love me for who i am.
when being strong is the only option i have for myself, that is wad i can do.
thanks to tt someone who taught me dis.
it really do make alot of sense to me.
i will live my life to its fullest.
cuz i noe wad i want.
i wanna excel in piano and bowling.
i want to meet wad i aim for.
and it means more time and hard work for practicing and mastering the skills.
love my piano tcher too!
giving me loads of inspiration every wk i go.
the time spend each wk is still short!
but i'll treasure it.

when a piece of music that is 3mins and 44secs long has nth for you to listen to..
no music at all.
wad is the aim of the composer?

take a good break and listen to ur surroundings for 3mins and 44secs.

ppl in dis world are far too busy.
why not take a break to listen to the sounds arnd you.
its a form of music too.

everything is making me love music and bowling.
nth cld replace it.

everyone is a different individual.
going thru wad seems to be normal might not be suitable at all times.
studying is not 100% for me.
but i'm trying my best.
i love music.
i wanna learn more about it.
but why are many things stopping me from doing so?
i just wanna go overseas to learn wad i like.
that is wad i'm hoping for.
but it just seem impossible.
daydreaming again.

2009-10-11T21:21:00.002+08:00

Yipeeeee!!
I went bowling bowling bowling!!
Spend 2hours just to get to changi and back to kovan.
I love my usual training place.
Saw many familiar faces.
Yes i've not gone dere for quite some time.
Played 6 games..
Average screwed.
Its very very below average!
And in my first game..
My precious bowling ball got injured. :(
Yeps i guess my ball impact too hard and the machine inside gave it a deep scratch..
Now it look awful!!!
I'm so going to train more when my bowling ball is back..
Cant play w/out it.
Anyone wanna go bowl? ;D

all my courage is gone so i guess i will just type it here.
i noe its highly possible that you wont see dis.
but i really wanna tell you dis.
pls be strong.
there are still many ppl who cares bout you.
no matter wad happens, you still have ur friends.
life still goes on.
be strong and stay happy.
cuz you said you will.
i hope that you are a happier person now.
and hope that you will get the results that you've been expecting.
i miss you.

2009-10-10T22:43:00.002+08:00

Some updates for the past few days.
Thur: Pe elective=bowling.
how nice is it ;D
but its seriously boring for me.
however a good way to start me off from the basics.
have not touched bowling for a super long period of time.
3months i think.
i miss those times.
trainings with seniors and having more more trainings with other ppl.
i miss everyone.
went to ttsh in the afternoon to kill some cells.
xray again.
and the doc make a darn idiot mistake by looking at the wrong xray films.
zzzz.
the crack is still not fully healed yet.
but who cares, i've already started playing bowling.
just no running.
guess wad. i was hoping to go running tmr evening.
totally forget tt i'm a not normal human who cant run.
freak out..

Fri: slack out at bugis and fareast with char.
the weather is so freaking hot for some wadever reasons.
bus-ed to airport.
passed by some places tt i've always wanted to noe where.
but i missed it again!
zz i guess its fate.
hate it.

Sat: piano lessons today is greatttt!
seriously i love music.
had a good conversation with mstan today and it really inspired me loads.
theory exam is cfm!
so i'm gonna work hard loadsloads.
i wanna get my diploma soon ;D

A ques that i've been thinking about.

Q:Will there be any sounds heard when a human is placed in a vacuum?

I wonder if anyone will give me the correct ans.
:)

i keep waiting for something to happen.
but i know it never will.
so what's the point?
i seriously dontnoe.
i'm a 100% idiot.
i know! -.-

2009-10-08T00:44:00.003+08:00

TO ALL MY BELOVED SENIORS!!!

alrights here i go.
As is coming real soon and i think you guys are stressed up enough.
working hard and staying up late.
yeps i'm sure all ur hard work will be worth it.
continue to work hard study hard.
but plspls do rest well loads.
slp loads eat loads drink loads.
muz takecare!!!
cuz you're not allowed to fall down at dis impt moment!

despite knowing you ppl for a relatively short time.
we care so much for each other.
with the common mindset to do well in academics and BOWLING.
the study dates with you guys.
the times tt have been spend with you ppl.
trainings and competition and promos period.
its very precious to me.
you guys were the ones with me.
and i treasure it alots.
of course it wont be gone so soon cuz i'll still come to mug! =p
all the times spend tgt.
it will be in my memories forever.
thank you for all the encouragement and crazyness and everything!
and oso 31 spam calls.
but still fail to wake me up! heehees. xD
hahas bear and tofu will make the best bros ever! ^_^
rmb our jc1 vs jc2 bowling challenge! :D
<3333333 you guys!

2009-10-07T21:59:00.002+08:00

madness shopping ytd.
with sheryl, ningwei and desmond.
yeps and movie today with sheryl.
tt's all.
i miss you guys seniors!
work hard for As.
i'll join the mugging sessions soon.
yeps ger is sorta mugger now.
sucks.

i nvr knew that it still hurts so much.
but i'm glad you have moved on.
maybe i will.
maybe not.
its my choice. i know.

2009-10-05T22:47:00.000+08:00

PROMOS IS OVER!
yes its over.
maths is easy. really.
but i still cant do it.
failure.
met char to go pasir ris park to have a good chat.
i felt much much better.
thanks alots.
too many things happened ytd.
kbox from 2-7!
its not enough..
i want more more time!

ytd. had a surprise planned out for cal.
many failures here and dere.
but we still succeeded in surprising him.
and smash cream on him!
not too over.. hahas.

some stuff are happening in such a weird way.
i dont uds.
i am really starting to wonder if i really belong to jc.
is it too late now..
i wanna do wad i want and like.
i wanna go overseas to study.
music.
but no one will ever approve of it.

ytd night was the worst ever.
cldnt stop cryng.
the stress is too much for me to handle.
you're the one i need most.
but i noe you'll nvr be back anymore.

2009-10-04T23:35:00.002+08:00

no one will uds wth is going on with me.
no one will except for you.
since you're gone so dere will no one.
life has no meaning.
seriously no meaning.
its the worst ever situation i've seen in my whole life.
cant believe how screwed i am.
just SCREWED.
cuz no one ever uds.

2009-10-02T17:53:00.003+08:00

HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY TO SHERYL! :D
i promise to celebrate it for you on tue :D

haven blog for quite some time.
mainly cuz my promos have started.
and you wont imagine how tired i am!
to the extent that i can feel myself dozing off while doing the papers.
argh wad happen if i really fall aslp and wake up.
time's up. gg. @_@

somehow i'm slacking too much.
how can i go out to play during promos.
okies now i dontnoe wad i am trying to do.

wed. slacked arnd with sheryl at compass.
subway starbucks lib.
how long have we not spend time tgt like tt.
since the times back at nc?
always slacking at these places after sch time.
i miss those times.
however, it gets boring too.
tt's why we went to pasir ris park and met basil there too.
yeas its a torture walking so muchhhh!
but its a nice place to destress.
both of us did something.
you succeeded but i didnt.
i got rejected! :(
it took me quite some time to decide to do that.
never did such stuff b4.
maybe the first and the last.
singing while walking.
i bet ppl think we're mad :p
anw chem paper is screwed.
i swear i put everything into it.
but i still cant do it.
seriously ger has no chemistry brain cells at all!

thur. met up with sher and basil after the horrible day.
super tired cuz of my weird studying method.
sleep one hour. wake and study for awhile.
and the cycle continues for the whole night.
decided to go to K at 5.. and sang till 9.
yeps tiring day.
econs and physics both screwed up.
didnt focus much on it.
chem was my focus.
but it bring down my confidence lvl badly.

now.. i just came back from a crazy journey.
went to met char at serangoon mrt.
went down to clarke quay to look for some cupcakes shop.
but failed terribly.
toe having a blister and the weather is HOT like mad!
with my sch uni.
its maddening -.-
after failing the first mission..
we decided to go down to potong pasir to look for dis shop tt sells soyabean.
yes ger dont eat tt.
but i wanted to prove to char tt places tt sell soyabean will have grassjelly.
obviously i'm wrong. arghhhh!!!!
somehow made our way to kallang leisure park to continue to look for cupcakes.
failed. second time.
ur junior is an idiot! =x
give all wrong info!
yah so we cabbed home from kallang mrt cuz i'm having a wedding dinner tonight.
came back and realised no one's back yet.
okies i shall go prepare.
hope tt i wont die of boredom at tt place.

you're everything on my mind.
missing you terribly.

2009-09-27T22:55:00.001+08:00

feeling super sick now.
thot i just got sinus in the morning..
but it got worst.
having flu at dis time sucks.
head giddy like crazy.
how am i gonna study?
went home earlier to watch F1..
and here i am.
listening to a song..
wo de ai ren.
very nice nice nice.
been thinking alots.
things wont have happened if i learnt to control my temper.
you're always on my mind.
i nvr stopped missing and thinking of you.
will you turn back for the last time?
i dont have much hopes anymore.
it has been so long since i last talk to you.
maybe you have already forget tt you have met me b4.
i guess ur exams have already started.
pls do work hard..
try ur best and everything will be fine.
i still cant give up on you.
tell me why.
the first time i didnt bear to let go of something for so long.
its not me.

2009-09-26T23:44:00.002+08:00

arghhhhh GP paper dis morning.
screwed my wkend.
paper1 i didnt have enough time and ov2 was not well developed..
paper2 i didnt have enough time to complete AQ.
NOT ENOUGH TIME!
i'm just soooo damn screwed up!
hais maybe my GP is enough to make me retain.
didnt study much today..
i'm so tired..
slept at 1plus ytd..
wake at 4plus den couldnt slp anymore..
cuz i'm scared of GP.. i scared that i cant wake once i go back to slp again..
wad a idiot i am rights?

plans for tmr.
heading for j8 to get shunxiong's present..
den to airport!
needa real mugging time at my new place! <3333
staff canteen >.<
I SO WANNA STUDY INFRONT OF THE NO STUDYING SIGN!!! :D

IMY.

2009-09-25T00:16:00.002+08:00

argh can my headache get lost!?!?!?
go awayyyy shoooooooooo!
i've been feeling tired tired tired.
nth can help.
i just hope the medicine will help me..
i cant afford to fall sick now.
pls.. i really wanna do my best.
i dontwant to disappoint you.
as promised.
i will do my best.
today will be the last day of official sch b4 promos.
the nxt day tt i'll be in sch..
it will be during chem paper.
hais i'm afraid wad happen during MYE will happen again.
total blankness.
give me some power will you?
i need it.

today.. one yr ago.
i rmbed.
i dont like heartbreakers.
yet i am one.
i'm just so sorry to you.
maybe you dont blame me anymore.
but i feel bad.

2009-09-23T23:01:00.000+08:00

Hais attacked by severe headache!
Screwed up..
Sorry Travis I'll make up breakfast some other day..
And i miss my physics lessons.. Wth.
I dont slp very little can..
Why wont dis headache leave me alone!!!!!
Promos is nearing..
I cant afford to fall ill at dis time..

2009-09-19T23:24:00.004+08:00

i think i'm starting to enjoy the freedom i've regained!
i can do wad i want.
go out with whoever i want.
i've been really happy during the time spend with my seniors! <333
with them, i feel happy.
but i guess it wont last long.
cuz after their As they'll be gone.
i'll miss you guys.
and the guys are going to NS!
crashed jx's bday party.
rahhhh and i got into the pool for some 'i-still-dontnoe-wad' reason.
thank goodness my phone is not with me.
if its with me and it goes into the pool..
i'm so gonna kill you =x
is there something wrong when there's a huge decline in no. of sms i send?
there is nth wrong.

I GOT MY NIKE BAG AND I LOVEE IT!

2009-09-19T09:28:00.002+08:00

this is the end.
there's no more links between us anymore.
its just as though i've nvr noe you b4.
if this is wad you really want.
let it be.
i'm tired of all the heartaches i've got from you.
i want to give up.
i really want to..
but tell me how to.

2009-09-18T23:44:00.004+08:00

went to airport after sch and tried to study abit.
but was not very productive cuz i'm just so tired.
finding every single chance to just slp!
watched Gforce with the seniors at century square.
the usual group.
& the animals are soooo cute!
except the cockroaches.
its sooooo yucks >.< hahas we didnt slack lo.
we need to rest too! :)
den after that homed and reached like at 10.
tired tired tired!
randomly thot of something that char told me ytd.
she was like you rmb wad happened at kfc last yr(during Os period)?
eh guess wad i sort of forget =x
but i recalled..
i can only conclude that.
its girls' nature to get jealous easily :D

maybe it just take time for me to forget you.
perhaps we were nvr meant to be tgt.
i wont think bout it.
getting back tgt or wadever.
i will live my own life.
w/out you.
fate will decide my future for me.

2009-09-18T02:09:00.002+08:00

finally did something productive at HOME after 3days.
look at the time now.
i'm left with 4hours of slp! :(
argh routine work not done.
after doing so, i'm gonna go straight to bed!
yawns gdnights all.
IMY!

2009-09-17T21:24:00.002+08:00

met char at compass pt right after sch.
hahas have been meeting her for the past 2days or so.
chatted and realized that we sort of lost contact for bout 3 yrs plus.
den got back again at the end of sec3.
when we had our pri sch gathering during mooncake festival.
know you since pri4.
and we seem to have rather little quarrels hor.
loveeeee basketball!
muhahahas. but i think i'm super lousy at it now..
haven been training for it for quite long.
so dont thrash me too badly huh.
okies the walk around compass pt tempt me to get some stuff!
I SO SUPER WANT THOSE STUFF!
NIKE BAG.
IPOD NANO.
CROWN RING!
i cant wait to get those stufffffff!!! :D
okies i just got my contact lens! :)
7months supply.. ^^
i think i will learn to let go as time passes.
dere's no more hope.
i dont see any.
mugging and going out to play.
to get you off my mind.

2009-09-16T21:18:00.003+08:00

i should have known it earlier.
you dont bother.
there is no hope no hope no hope.
i should have got it into my brain long ago.
i should just give up.
anw promises dont matter to you anymore.
promises are meant to be broken.
this is so freaking tired.
plus life is fcuking sucky.
promos promos promos.
everyone telling me FCUKING PROMOS IS COMING!
den wad?!
okies i'll go for the exams.
den can i drop dead straight right after the last paper?!
fcuked up.
life has no real meaning for me.
MUG TILL I DIE!

why am i still so affected.
those pics shld not matter anymore.
its just a click.
and to delete everything.
pls do delete everything from my memory!
someone pls do can?!
everything!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-09-15T23:06:00.002+08:00

song by sylvester: 希望

我一直以来都守护在你身边
不懂你如何看得见
也只好静静靠在一边

你的笑容能让我开心一整天
只要一天没和你见面
我的心情不会好一点

时间已经不多我还有话很想说
隐藏在我心里不懂如何开口
我会很快就要走每一夜不算太多
简简单单希望你会懂

不能在一起也没关系
只少你懂我的心会在想你
那些回忆会永远抱着甜蜜

不管未来你会在哪里
我都不会忘记
我爱你你是我微笑的原因

只是希望你能比从前开心

credits: kaiting!

2009-09-15T22:22:00.004+08:00

met char today.
ate lunch den went to talk talk at some place near basketball court.
nice chat.
needa someone who i can talk to bout my probs.
i dont seem that strong can.
but i will try to be.
talked to char..
its good that you have learnt to let go of her.
i strongly believe that you'll be happier cuz she's not worth and attitude sucks!
lol. seems like me too.. =x
hais i noe.
ger bad attitude is coming back.
but i'm trying to change alittle.
not late for sch and not taking early leave counted?
we want to get into some 'bad' company.
as in ppl who really wanna go party and go have some crazy fun.
yes i super need that.
anyone interested?
clubbing? xD
after promos barhs. sucks >.<
i guess i'm not as good as char.
i still cant let go.
guess i'll nvr will.
you are the best part of my memories.
nvr gonna erase it.
argh back to reality bitch!
its exactly 2 more wks to promos.
and i haven do a thing since ytd!
come on.
i'm gonna start now!
i hope you're working hard too.
pls do kays?
dont give up! jiayous!

2009-09-14T23:20:00.000+08:00

long long day for me.
end sch at 505 den went to mx hse for pw till 8plus.
reached home 9plus lo.
i'm so freaking tired.
plus tt rather long bus ride..
thot bout loads of things.
now ger is so damn freaking tired!
where have my source of energy gone to..
anw me and kt waking at 3 to mug!
lets see if i can wake the pig!
muhahahas. provided i can wake. =x
i'll blog later to prove tt ger the pig can wake at such weird timings kies? :D
rahhhhhh why is zhong qiu jie on 3oct?!
promos lehs!
sians.. anw wanna go playyyyy again =x
pri sch gathering. lol.
lets see who will go barhs.

many memories going thru my brain.
i need you back.
but i'll leave it to fate.
i hope you are much happier now.
you muz be can..
you still matters to me.

2009-09-14T00:03:00.000+08:00

Study at airport with Calvin sx and rq in the morning.
Went home earlier in the evening cuz i had dinner.
Grandaunt and uncle came from Indonesia.. So dinner with them.
3 whole hrs. W/out any studying..
So i had time to think bout stuff.
Didnt feel like doing anything when i reached home at 11pm..
Supposed to be slping now but cant seem to fall aslp.
Someone asked can rls last at dis age.
No doubts.
Yes its possible.
I believe in it.
I hope you've seen my sms.
From the start, i nvr expect any replies.
All i want to noe is tt you're fine and doing well.
I hope you dont avoid me pls..
ily. i cant forget.

2009-09-12T23:06:00.000+08:00

arghh i feel bad now.
haven touch abit of revision work today.
slack huh?
i'm gonna makeup for it tmr cuz i'll go airport again.
tt is the perfect place to mug :)
have been thinking alots today.
or rather since afew days back.
i dontnoe why.
imy.
promos coming soon.
work hard.

2009-09-10T23:02:00.000+08:00

didnt go esplanade lib with seniors today.
cuz of the screwed meal ytd. =x
anw today was more like shopping for me :D
bought my dress and pinkkkkk headphones <3333333!
now my headphones is my necessity when i study!
plus sweets :)
my latest wish: all j1s i noe will all get promoted! :D
i miss going to the airport..
ok i only didnt go for today -.-
have been spending more than 10 hrs a day dere.
i'm in love with tt place huh?! >.<
ger is idiot =x
ahhhhhhhh.
ok i scream for nth.
just tt i've wasted my night.
*look at the time*
arghhhhhh.
needa slp soon.
pw in sch at 8.
den meeting seniors for lunch at airport!
will be dere like till 10pm again :)
i'm gonna become mugger soon..
arghhhhh nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-09-09T01:09:00.002+08:00

Out since 10am.
Went to airport t3 and t2 to study with seniors!
Calvin, charles, shunxiong, rongquan and joey.
I will post those pics up soon on fb =x
Left dere at 10pm.
Yes i'm tired.
Very tired.. Good!
And i'm getting home later and later.
Aiya it dont matters cuz no one cares.
Overnight at airport seems a gd idea to me!
O.O

Plans for tmr.
Gonna finish chem kinetics and start on MATHS!
Meeting them at 9.
So i got to wake at 7plus..
Yawns..
*look at the time*

Sometimes I really wonder.
Heartbreakers appear everywhere.
Who are the right ppl.
There is no definite definitions.
I feel like giving up.
All dis waiting.
I'm sick of it.
But I cant let go of you.
You gave me too much memories to keep.

Promos stress.
I'm really trying hard to study.
But if I'm still gonna get results like wad i got for myes.
Its the end for me.
Screwed my life.

2009-09-07T22:30:00.000+08:00

sudden emoness.
sudden love for chem.
dont ask me why.
cuz i dont wish to say.
attituded ><
i miss youuuuu
19 days has passed.
19 days!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
nvr feel so crazy freaky wadever.
its almost 3wks lehs..
very long :(
till now, i still cant accept wad has happen.
i cant.
mugging mood gone for a moment and i wanna stone.
have been studying hard..
trying to numb myself and to stop thinking.
i need a miracle.

arghhhh.
just rmb got wedding dinner on 2OCT!
sher's bday.
and promos period.
zzzz..
no time to shop for new dress!
hais but i want no thing except YOU!

2009-09-07T20:23:00.001+08:00

Woke up at arnd 9.
Mainly cuz i am used to waking at dis time if dere's no sch.
Only I noe the reason why..
And oso wake cuz of my shocking/scary etc alarm ringtone!
LOL love game..
Nvr ever put tt!
Just get scare and get a terrible shock early in the morn. >.<
Met char at 10plus at macs to study till bout 4plus.
Sher, ning & desmond were dere awhile too.
But didnt talk much.
Freaking tired at tt time already.
Just finish dinner after i woke up.
Feel like giddygiddy..
Wthhhh :(
Got to continue study chemmm!
chemical bonding is taking hell loads of my time! -.-|
but i just wanna study hard and hopefully do well.
you're the last person tt i ever wanna disappoint.
ily. i miss you alots.
will you even miss me?

2009-09-07T00:04:00.001+08:00

I really wonder if you still care.

2009-09-06T23:43:00.002+08:00

Supposed to meet sx at airport at 8!
But latelatelate..
So we met at 12 instead.
HAHA!
But someone came like almost 1 >.<
Den calvin and joey were dere toooo!
Hmm let me think..
Quite productive studying..
Chemical bonding is sossososososo damn difficult.
Trying to master it the whole day lo. :(
And i'm so in love with strawberry oreooooo! xD
Yeas so since 12 to 9plus i was hanging out at t3 and t2..
Lalalalas.
Its tiring lo..
But quite fun too!
Hahas.
Had dinner at t2 sakae!
<333333333
GOOD LUCK TO SENIORS FOR UR GP PAPER TMRRRR!
GET UR As!!!!

I thot I would see you dere.
But i didnt dare to go near tt place.
I dontnoe wad will happen if i see you now.
So i shld just avoid.
Started going to airport to study cuz of you.
But now no more.
Today is the 1st time I went dere w/out you.
Will it be like dis forever?
Hols is starting.
Make gd use of it to study and rest more.
Drink loads of water.
You cant fall sick now okies?
Take care of urself.
I believe you will do well.

I've got a new wish..
Thot of it when I was at airport just now.
Had the sudden urge of buying a ticket and fly to somewhere farfar away.
Stay away from this place for a good long time.
1yr 2yr 3yr?
I just feel like leaving this place.

2009-09-05T23:36:00.000+08:00

tiring day!
supposed to wake up at 630 and reach airport at 8.
but i woke late.
everyone woke late!
so didnt go cuz i had piano class.
think my skills are improving much more now.
too much free time lo.
so can spend some with my piano :(
den went to meet char at mac to study..
not very productive lo.
den went to lib to get some bks to read!
yes ger is reading!
LOL!
den went to greatgrandma hse eat..
den end up slping =x
i'm just very tired.
or maybe cuz i had nth to do.

plans for tmr.
waking at 730.
reach airport at 9!
muzmuzmuz!
studyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy! ><
muz finish at least half of chem tmrrrr!
I'm so in loveeeee with chemmmmm!
LOL!

wad happen.
did you not feel like replying me anymore.
hais i thot it didnt matter so much to me.
but it seems it still does.
i miss you.

2009-09-04T23:38:00.000+08:00

KBOX with the gals today.
SHERYL and NINGWEI!! <333333
fun lo. although very tired.
they having hols but i just end sch ok??
so felt tireddddd
and my throat abit cannot take it le.
two kbox sessions.
after tt sher went back to celebrate her daddy bday.
HAPPY BDAY LO! :D
Me and ning went to Tamp1 to eateat.
So freaking crowded lo!
And we spent some time finding a place to have our dinner.
Den went to TM to walk awhile
Guess who I met.
SHUMING!
Goshhhh I so freaking miss her!!!!
Den continued to walk arnd and I bought a pretty case for my phone..
Pretty pretty!
Den home!
I'm so tired nowwwwwww
Was slping on the bus lo ><
Gonna rest early..
Wake up early and study hard!

Ohmygoshhhhh I'm so freaking happy now!
Like :D:)^_^
You initiated conver with me.
I'm really so damn happy happy HAPPYYYY!
I will study hard I WILL!
I promised you b4 and it will still be counted.
So i will study hard!

2009-09-03T19:52:00.000+08:00

YIPEEEEEEE MY CAST IS GONE GONE GONE!
but i still need to go for xray like a mth later.
supposed to be during promos.
crazy. so it is scheduled a wk later.
hees kbox tmr with sher and ning!
yes i just went ytd and i'm going again tmrrrrr! :D
hmm ppl dont worry so much lo.
i'm fine really fine.
i will jump arnd in sch to prove it okiessss?
i'm so happy tt the doc say the gap between my bones are closing up.
but no sports for me for one more mth.
zzzzz. i cant wait le can???
i wanna go bowling go play basketball nowwwww!
gosh why i so high i oso dontnoe why ><
i wanna go play bowling :(
i wanna go play basketball :(
i wanna run arnd :(
zzz abit emo liaos. -.-
everyone is happy for me.
but the person tt i want to share the news with wont even bother anymore.

bout ytd.
didnt go sch
had breakfast with char at tm mac.
den decided to study abit for promos to makeup for not going to sch.
den walk arnd TM and T-1.
den cab to ehub.
had lunch at seoul garden.
LOL we're lousy eaters.
the sight of meat now make me wanna vomit ><
den went kbox...
its like coldddddd like hellll! :(
walk arnd many places that reminded me of you.
alots. practically everything.
went into bowling centre to have a peek but its like you wont be dere.
we've been to so many places and ytd i went back to all those same places.
w/out you.

okies back to reality.
i just realise nxt wk is hols.
like dis morning.
LOL.
tmr is the dateline for eom.
i'm abit dead.
but i dont really care.
its like 7%..
i still got other stuff to do!
let me get thru tmr fast kies?
den let me enjoy myself at kbox for a night.
den i'll mug.
serious MUG!
i've started mugging le lo!
gonna throw everything into chem..
4chapters down.
7 more to go!

wish that a miracle would happen.
no i need 2!
i noe i'm greedy but let me have 2 plsssss
one is to go back to the past.
two is to let me promote can?
if not i'm really stuck.
study private sch?
poly?
go overseas?
i seriously dontnoe!

2009-09-02T19:32:00.000+08:00

Got a call from mscheng.
EOM IS MADNESS CAN?!

anw didnt go sch today.
really pon lo.
went kbox with char.
practically spend the whole day with her.
was happy.
but not now.
eom screw my mood.
bought new shades!
fri gonna go K again!
tmr having checkup.
shld i even go sch?
hais.
i wanna get dis bloody cast off my foot.
i wanna go play basketball!
:(
miss you.

2009-09-01T13:13:00.001+08:00

arghhhh!
28 days?!?!?!?
did i see something wrongly?!?!?!?

2009-08-31T22:05:00.000+08:00

quite a good day today.
at least was rather packed up with stuffs.
breakfast with sher ning & desmond at cp mac.
den sher went home and we went to nchs.
saw loadsloads of ppl.
tchers and 4g ppl!
i miss all of them.
i miss the piano in sch..
where we always practice.
manymany things.
tried to play bball too.
LOL desmond didnt noe i was in bball team ><
hey you tie with me okies?!
not any better lo..
when my leg is okies, I wanna go play bball!
nth is going to stop me anymore.
i dont care if i'm gonna get injured again.
i will go play once tt cast is gone!
had a 4G group lunch.
den home.
went back to pri sch awhile lor.
i miss everything dere too..
now i'm missing you too..
LK asked me bout wad happened again.
I'm really tired.
I need you so much all dis time
but you're not here anymore.
i'm so tired tt i give up quarreling with mom.
i dont wish to say anything.
i just listen to her and let her scold all she want.
i noe i will get retained.
but i just dont wish to do anything bout it.
maybe dis is the end of me.
i will just be said as another useless person who failed the jc system.
why did i even choose dis route.
if i didnt, i wont even noe you.
tt will be better isnt it?

2009-08-30T22:35:00.000+08:00

Many things going thru my mind today.
I realise how much I've missed you.
Two weeks has passed.
Maybe I dont make a difference to ur life anymore.
You have decided to harden ur heart.
No more chances.
Why do I still not want to give up.
I'm stubborn.
I know I am.
I just want to hold on.
The best way of loving you now is to let you find ur own happiness.

2009-08-29T22:41:00.000+08:00

Thinking over something tt someone has said.
For the 1st time I was no longer sure about the reason why am I waiting.
Waiting for nth.
Waiting for things tt will nvr happen?

Do you really want me to forget you?

2009-08-29T18:11:00.000+08:00

I cant help worrying about you.
I want to help you.
But it seems that you dontwant to.
I cant do anything now.
Promos is really coming.
When am I ever going to start studying?!
Hais.
I miss you.
Almost 2wks since I've seen you.
Are you well and all?
Are you still unhappy?

2009-08-28T22:31:00.000+08:00

everything still matters to me.
you are the one.
wad has happened to you recently?
why wont you talk to me anymore.
i wanna help you.
i'm just very worried bout you.
pls dont give up so easily.
stay strong pls.
you can do it.
you can overcome the probs you're facing.

2009-08-28T17:13:00.000+08:00

Just back home. Alone now.
Time to reflect.
SPA ytd was screwed.
Just saw my EOM draft 5.
Faints. CFM DEAD!
13 comments to edit.
WTH!
Timetable for promos is done more den a wk ago.
But I've yet to start.
33days more.
GLKW wad are you up to?!
I just wanna scold myself too. :\
I hope you're fine.
Replies dont matter tt much anymore.
Just wanna make sure you're alrights.

2009-08-27T22:33:00.000+08:00

Had a small celebration for char today cuz it was her bday on tue.
Made a little book.
Hope you'll like it.
The 2hrs talk with you really helped alots.
I just saw something.
I'm really sorry.
Maybe if we didnt meet each other, such things wont happen.
You wont feel so terrible.
You could have been a better and happier person w/out me.
And yet I'm no longer with you.
I dontnoe how to help you.
I wanna be with you.
Stay by ur side no matter wad happen.
Do you get it?
I'm just so sorry for getting you in such a bad state.
Everything's my fault.
You promised to be a happy person.
Pls do rmb tt.

2009-08-26T23:17:00.001+08:00

I wanna bake a cake!
Random.
But anyone interested??

2009-08-26T20:12:00.000+08:00

I just hope time will pass faster each day.
Being tired seems great now.
Although I need to slp.
But at least I'm thinking lesser.
Maybe not. I dontnoe too.
Loads of work piled up.
Eom.
SPA tmr.
I just hope I wont screw things too badly.
Had career talk today in sch.
Accountancy.
Seems quite gd to me.
I like it.
Maybe tt will be the goal I'm gonna work towards for.
But first I got to get thru promos.
I dont wish to have any more regrets in my life.
Too many in the past.
Almost a wk has passed without you.
I wonder how have you been.
Still as busy I think.
Pls do take care and hope that you are always happy.

)':

2009-08-26T00:27:00.002+08:00

I feel friggin fucked up right now. I can't control my emotions, I don't know why. I don't know why you don't understand after what I told you.

Before we were together, I told myself that maybe, maybe things will be different after we're together. Because after all, we're still friends, what's there to commit right? But just now you asked me what happen, after I told you your mood changed instantly. Not calm, not calm at all.

Why won't you understand things.. You said give & take didn't you. I tried to give, tried to understand, I don't feel it back. I'm kinda surprised that you'd show me attitude. In fact, I'm shocked. Never in my life have I imagined that you would give me attitude, you'd be mean to me.

I'm not a guy.. I didn't know you would quarrel with me. I didn't know you wouldn't give way to me. I didn't know..

Sometimes I feel that we're so different.. So different from other couples. Different perspective, yes that's a listening barrier. Maybe that's why you could listen, but only half of what I meant would sink in.

I really am trying to understand you. But who'll understand me? I don't wanna keep guessing & guessing. I don't want to.

GG's right after all. There's heartaches, heartbreaks. It's fucking hurtful. I wanna cry.

Love, S

2009-08-25T22:00:00.003+08:00

Today is a tiring day despite it was a short day at sch.
In sch, I was so damn tired.
Stoning arnd if not doing some work.
Just to keep my mind away from things.
After sch met up with sher.
Den basil came along for awhile lo.
People do change.
But sometimes the timing is wrong.
I'm gonna work harder to make myself tired.
I still can feel the pain.
Slept at 2 ytd however i still cant stop thinking of you.
When sher and basil went off, I started thinking of things again.
Tell me how to stop.
How to forget can?
I really dontnoe wad i'm trying to do.
Homework are really piling.
Spa coming on thur.
Eom due nxt fri.
Promos coming.
And I dont sense the urgency at all.
Maybe I no longer feel anything for everything.
Just numb.
Sher was right.
Wad's the pt of writing in the bk when i no longer have you.
Why didnt I treasure things more when I have you.
I nvr changed.
I still take things for granted.
I only have myself to blame for everything.

2009-08-23T20:47:00.000+08:00

Thanks to some ppl who cheer me up today.
Emeline! Tt crazy dinosaur!
I'm gonna watch fated to love you faster den you!
I'm fast okies?
Now at ep 10. I only started on FRI!
YuanHe. Thks i noe you're trying hard.
But no i dont need anyone to be a substitute.
Cuz you'll nvr be.
No one can replace him. Nvr ever.
I'm sorrys.
But if you ever mention it again.
We wont be even friends anymore.
Hope to go out with you soon!
Dont even noe how you look like.
Lols. You say wanna go dou feng for very long liaos.
Hais. Wait till I got mood barhs.
I just wanna coop up at home.
Be in my rm and infront of com for 24 hrs.
Sorrys to sher!
For my last min backout for our meeting.
I'm sorrys.
To you. I noe you're stressed up and all tt.
But I believe you can do it.
You really can.

To myself, today is the last day for you to be like tt.
Tmr pls buck up and do study.
Waste 4days already.
I will study hard.
My promise to you still exist in me.
I hope you'll be happy.
I hope to be ur angel forever.
Even if you dont feel my existence.
I dontmind anymore.
You being happy is the most impt thing to me.

2009-08-23T10:36:00.002+08:00

I finally slept. For afew hours.
Just woke up and looked at the time.
Its just different.
If things didnt change, we'll be tgt now.
But I guess tt will not happen anymore.
I wont even get to see you.
For now, I really dontnoe wad I shld do.
For the rest of the day, I guess it'll be spent on just thinking of you.
I cant do anything else.
I dont wish to.
I dontwant anything else in my life.
Cuz I dont need it and nth is as impt as you.

2009-08-23T00:01:00.002+08:00

Met sher at hg mall mac today to study.
Not very productive though.
My mind was not into it at all.
Flipping thru my chem notes like they are blank pieces of paper.
Andy was dere. And another guy called chee siang.
If I didnt spell wrongly. -.-
Anyways i dontnoe if it's a joke.
But pls do stop 'recommending' guys.
Stuff like tt really piss me off.
I will fan lian de.
Even if it meant to be a joke.
I'm not in mood for it.
Went to greatgrandma hse.
Thot I could study dere.
But failed terribly.
I was looking at my phone.
All the time.
Hoping for it to happen but it nvr.
So I went to slp.. Listening to some emo songs.
Couldnt slp and got up after an hour.
Not time to go home yet.
So i was stoning with my phone beside me all the time.
I've got too much time to spare w/out ur sms.
I'm not used to it.
Maybe it makes no difference to ur life.
I cant stop thinking bout you all day long.
Really cant.
I cant stop thinking wad happened between us.
I noe its my fault.
I really regret everything.
Wad's the use of thinking bout it.
I noe its no pt thinking of it but i cant stop.
I will just continue to think in tt way and keep a little hope.
Even if it will nvr happen.
I choose to lie to myself.
We're supposed to meet today.
But I guessed I'll nvr see you anymore.

2009-08-22T00:33:00.000+08:00

I will bear with the pain.
It is worth it. I know it will.
I just got to get myself busy with work all the time to stop myself from thinking.
Yes you're right. At least for now tt's wad I shld do.
Wad is mine will always be.
I hope so.
I really do hope..
Got to try to slp.
I really have to get some rest if I wanna keep myself busy with work.
Work hard to fall aslp barhs.
And tries to forget some of my pain.

2009-08-21T18:04:00.000+08:00

Ger needs some help.
I really dontnoe wad to do.
I cant stop thinking bout the past and him.
I really miss those times.
I noe it wont be back anymore.
I dontnoe how long will I take to forget everything.
But the more I think bout it, the thot of giving up everything comes back.
Life has lost its meaning for me.
I hope he'll be happy.
I mean it.
I just hope to leave dis world asap to spare me from dis misery.
I miss him.
Miss us being tgt.
Every single thing.
I noe you wont think bout it anymore.
Cuz you dont feel a thing.
Every little things we had tgt means a great loads to me.
Maybe I shld be contented with it now..
I dontnoe.
Things are different w/out you.
Maybe we're not fated to be tgt from the start.
Everything from ytd still haunts me.
I cant forget it..
I really hope time can turn back..
All I need is a last chance.

2009-08-21T13:41:00.002+08:00

Didnt go to sch today.
Not well and I dont have the mood to do anything.
Yah I'm silly wadever you may think.
But I just dont see the pt in life now.
Wasting time away..
Ya tt's wad I'm trying to do.
Hmm ya promos.
Maybe tt is the only thing.
But I have to do it well cuz I have to.
Do I have a choice?!
I just wanna stay at home hug my precious wadever i go.
Cant go out cuz its raining.
Sometimes I just think tt everything is a prank.
Things can change so fast w/out any chances to go back anymore.
I really just hope you'll be happy.
Tt's all I ask for.

2009-08-20T21:52:00.001+08:00

Over le..
Life carries on.
I dontnoe how.
But it will.
Numb. That's wad i feel.

2009-08-20T17:25:00.000+08:00

Disastrous life.
I DONTWANT ANYTHING!
I want you back.
Its impossible.
You dont love me.
Not anymore.
Tell me wad i shld do.
I dontnoe.
I shld just rot and die.
I've wasted the whole afternoon thinking.
Nothing.
I dontnoe where i'm heading for.
Wad i shld do in life.
As good as dead.
Yes tt describes me best.