♥ glkw

♥ Thursday, October 29, 2009

First day at work!!
Not tiring. But boring lahhhhhhhh ;x
Hope to work with the guys tmr..
Noisy and fun bunch!

Too much time for me to think about things in the past.
I miss you.. too much too much.
All dis waiting is so tiring.
You are happy now.
So everything will be worth it.
I will get over it.

10:31 PM

♥ Wednesday, October 28, 2009

went pool with char and basil at the usual place.
a piece of skin went off my finger while playing..
lol i too ''pro'' -.-
its still painful.. till now :(:(
dinner at compass pt!
subway for the second day ;D
argh got to admit tt i lose to basil at initial D very badly today.
hand was hurting like mad after pool..
i dontnoe why :'(
i feel so bored.
i want a job.
i miss you.
insane me.
damn myself.
i'm crazy.
pig too much.
slack too much.
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
i'm mad.
yesssss send me to imh plsssssss ;p

1:12 AM

♥ Friday, October 23, 2009

Falling sick again and again.
Tt explains my tiredness and horrible headache :(
Still cant fall aslp.
I'm thinking of you.. Wad bout you?

10:16 PM

♥ Thursday, October 22, 2009

out the whole day with char to look for jobs.
UOB plaza is a super cool place.
went up to 56th floor! :D:D
tiring after all the walking and the freaking hot weather.
both of us got quite pissed at some pt too.
third time. super failure.
met mom and auntie J after their work and went to shop at plaza sin.
finally got my first set of formal office wear.
cool and nice..
but i really look weird ><
i'm really tired now..
baby i miss you loads.

11:43 PM

♥ Tuesday, October 20, 2009

Nine more hours b4 i officially withdraw from sch..
It really means alots to me.
Seems to lose loads of stuff.
Things will just go back to how it is b4 i entered college.
Met new ppl but lost some of them too.
Went to college and lost some ppl too.
Going to college and leaving college both give me lots of regrets.
I really hope life can be better to me.
Hope I'll see all the seniors tmr..
At least one last time in sch.
I'm sorry to the bowling team too..
And i guess if going to college and bowling brought us tgt.. Now i guess nth is left.
I'm out of college.
Its the end of everything I'm wishing for.
You'll nvr turn back for me.
2 months since then. You would have forgotten bout everything.

1:43 AM

♥ Monday, October 19, 2009

slacking and pigging for the whole day.
i really hope it wont be like this anymore for the nxt few days.
i wanna go for some interviews!
if not my life will be really meaningless.
slept till almost one today. incredible record for this yr -.-
and slept again in the afternoon for 2 hrs plus.
i conclude tt the promos i really draining. :(

every little thing happening arnd me will set me thinking of someone.
everything in the past.
i wonder wad will be in my future.
i guess you will nvr think of me anymore.
but you nvr leave my mind b4.
everything is still the same for me.
i still feel ur presence.
i miss you terribly everytime something reminds me of you.
this feeling nvr goes away.

12:23 AM

♥ Sunday, October 18, 2009

Thur--Went to the movies with joey!
She waited for me for almost 3 periods :D
Rushed off to TM after i ended my day.
Yes rush! We ran dere!
Got to TM in less than 30mins.
And bought tics and food within 10mins or less..
Den we were in the cinema!
How cool :D
Watched Julie&Julia.
Nice show.. Loads of food too!
Joey and I wanted to cook for loadloads of ppl!
HAHAHAHAHA if you ever dare to eat :X
Cook for bear?? Haha.

Fri-- Decision to withdraw from sch is finalised.
Nth else can change my mind and I wont regret it.
I've thot thru very carefully.
And I really hope ppl arnd me will give me their support and not try to discourage me anymore.
My confidence level is low enough already :(
After the damn promos..
Went lunch with sheryl at subway!
My second time of the wk :)
Den went to her hse..
Guess wad.. Both of us are pigs.
And we took afternoon naps for one hour!!
Den met basil at kovan to play pool.
I muz say tt he's really pro in it.
Budden I WIN BASIL IN INITIAL D!!!
TWO GAMES!!!!!!! :D
And I'm using AT. -.-
Bused down to ikea to have early dinner and walked arnd.
I have the urge to makeover my rm!!!
Change of plan.. and we went to TM instead of expo.
Watched surrogates at century square!
Its a really nice show though some parts are abit disgusting.
Fake robots ><

Today-- Woke up by my mom and rmbed tt i didnt have piano lesson!
It is a public hol!
How blur can i be.. Zz.
Went to bowl in the afternoon..
I think I really have lesser stress now.. Or am i venting my stress out?
Average of 5 games was 161.
Quite good for me..
Esp after not training for a good long period of time.
Haha i'm so happy now.
But I wont tell you why! :P

cuz you nvr leave my mind.

12:23 AM

♥ Saturday, October 17, 2009

I miss my bestest memories in life.

1:46 AM

♥ Wednesday, October 14, 2009

just went to tell mom tt i am preparing to go to poly.
since its almost 100% that i will be retained.
yes if i'm not retained, i'm gonna treat sheryl to 3 good meals!
i know mom has been thinking very highly of me in every aspect.
but somehow at this point, i failed very badly.
like wad she said, i am wasting one whole yr of my life.
but cant she just accept it that i am just not suitable for jc anymore.
i've really tried my very best.
after wad happened during mid-yrs, i've told myself and promised ppl that i'll work really hard for promos exams.
i really did! but nth is achieved.
my promos results is still as bad as mid-yrs.
she just dont uds cuz she nvr really see me studying at home.
yah so i'm rather sure tt i wanna head towards poly now.
there's no pt retaining one more yr when i'm unsure if i can promote nxt yr.
i really cannot stand my mom.
giving every single excuse tt she can find to explain my failure dis time.
i am accepting the fact tt i cant do it after putting so much hard work.
so why muz she interfere when she's not the one studying?
she is just my mother in status.
i may sound rude.
but the fact is I AM THE ONE WHO IS STUDYING.
I AM THE ONE WHO REALLY KNOW IF I HAVE PUT IN EFFORT.
i really hate her for stating some crappy reasons tt she think that have resulted in my failure and also the decision to go to the poly.
i really hate it.
why muz she remind me of the pain that i've been trying so hard to forget.

i know you wont ever be there for me anymore.
i really hope you will do well.
imy.

10:34 PM

♥ Tuesday, October 13, 2009

exam results are mostly out already.
its as horrible as myes.
but i really tried my best.
for those who think tt i had too much distractions.
dis is wad i still get despite mugging like a crazy idiot.
just accept it.
dont give me any crappy reasons tt i've not been studying hard cuz i'm wasting my time on other stuff.
maybe i'm just not suitable to study such stuff.
retain or go poly.
its not cfm yet.
however i'm sure that i dont dare to guarantee tt i will be able to make it if i choose to be retained.

some stuff are nvr meant to be said.

11:17 PM

♥ Monday, October 12, 2009

many things happened today.
i guess its just life. life is like tt.
reflected the whole day.
conclusion: i'm much stronger den before.
nth is gonna bring me down.
when i fall, i will stand up again.
its something tt i've learnt from someone.
and i really admire her for it.
we are who we are.
dont bother changing us.
like me/love me for who i am.
when being strong is the only option i have for myself, that is wad i can do.
thanks to tt someone who taught me dis.
it really do make alot of sense to me.
i will live my life to its fullest.
cuz i noe wad i want.
i wanna excel in piano and bowling.
i want to meet wad i aim for.
and it means more time and hard work for practicing and mastering the skills.
love my piano tcher too!
giving me loads of inspiration every wk i go.
the time spend each wk is still short!
but i'll treasure it.

when a piece of music that is 3mins and 44secs long has nth for you to listen to..
no music at all.
wad is the aim of the composer?

take a good break and listen to ur surroundings for 3mins and 44secs.

ppl in dis world are far too busy.
why not take a break to listen to the sounds arnd you.
its a form of music too.

everything is making me love music and bowling.
nth cld replace it.

everyone is a different individual.
going thru wad seems to be normal might not be suitable at all times.
studying is not 100% for me.
but i'm trying my best.
i love music.
i wanna learn more about it.
but why are many things stopping me from doing so?
i just wanna go overseas to learn wad i like.
that is wad i'm hoping for.
but it just seem impossible.
daydreaming again.

10:06 PM

♥ Sunday, October 11, 2009

Yipeeeee!!
I went bowling bowling bowling!!
Spend 2hours just to get to changi and back to kovan.
I love my usual training place.
Saw many familiar faces.
Yes i've not gone dere for quite some time.
Played 6 games..
Average screwed.
Its very very below average!
And in my first game..
My precious bowling ball got injured. :(
Yeps i guess my ball impact too hard and the machine inside gave it a deep scratch..
Now it look awful!!!
I'm so going to train more when my bowling ball is back..
Cant play w/out it.
Anyone wanna go bowl? ;D

all my courage is gone so i guess i will just type it here.
i noe its highly possible that you wont see dis.
but i really wanna tell you dis.
pls be strong.
there are still many ppl who cares bout you.
no matter wad happens, you still have ur friends.
life still goes on.
be strong and stay happy.
cuz you said you will.
i hope that you are a happier person now.
and hope that you will get the results that you've been expecting.
i miss you.

9:21 PM

♥ Saturday, October 10, 2009

Some updates for the past few days.
Thur: Pe elective=bowling.
how nice is it ;D
but its seriously boring for me.
however a good way to start me off from the basics.
have not touched bowling for a super long period of time.
3months i think.
i miss those times.
trainings with seniors and having more more trainings with other ppl.
i miss everyone.
went to ttsh in the afternoon to kill some cells.
xray again.
and the doc make a darn idiot mistake by looking at the wrong xray films.
zzzz.
the crack is still not fully healed yet.
but who cares, i've already started playing bowling.
just no running.
guess wad. i was hoping to go running tmr evening.
totally forget tt i'm a not normal human who cant run.
freak out..

Fri: slack out at bugis and fareast with char.
the weather is so freaking hot for some wadever reasons.
bus-ed to airport.
passed by some places tt i've always wanted to noe where.
but i missed it again!
zz i guess its fate.
hate it.

Sat: piano lessons today is greatttt!
seriously i love music.
had a good conversation with mstan today and it really inspired me loads.
theory exam is cfm!
so i'm gonna work hard loadsloads.
i wanna get my diploma soon ;D

A ques that i've been thinking about.

Q:Will there be any sounds heard when a human is placed in a vacuum?

I wonder if anyone will give me the correct ans.
:)

i keep waiting for something to happen.
but i know it never will.
so what's the point?
i seriously dontnoe.
i'm a 100% idiot.
i know! -.-

10:43 PM

♥ Thursday, October 8, 2009

TO ALL MY BELOVED SENIORS!!!

alrights here i go.
As is coming real soon and i think you guys are stressed up enough.
working hard and staying up late.
yeps i'm sure all ur hard work will be worth it.
continue to work hard study hard.
but plspls do rest well loads.
slp loads eat loads drink loads.
muz takecare!!!
cuz you're not allowed to fall down at dis impt moment!

despite knowing you ppl for a relatively short time.
we care so much for each other.
with the common mindset to do well in academics and BOWLING.
the study dates with you guys.
the times tt have been spend with you ppl.
trainings and competition and promos period.
its very precious to me.
you guys were the ones with me.
and i treasure it alots.
of course it wont be gone so soon cuz i'll still come to mug! =p
all the times spend tgt.
it will be in my memories forever.
thank you for all the encouragement and crazyness and everything!
and oso 31 spam calls.
but still fail to wake me up! heehees. xD
hahas bear and tofu will make the best bros ever! ^_^
rmb our jc1 vs jc2 bowling challenge! :D
<3333333 you guys!

12:44 AM

♥ Wednesday, October 7, 2009

madness shopping ytd.
with sheryl, ningwei and desmond.
yeps and movie today with sheryl.
tt's all.
i miss you guys seniors!
work hard for As.
i'll join the mugging sessions soon.
yeps ger is sorta mugger now.
sucks.

i nvr knew that it still hurts so much.
but i'm glad you have moved on.
maybe i will.
maybe not.
its my choice. i know.

9:59 PM

♥ Monday, October 5, 2009

PROMOS IS OVER!
yes its over.
maths is easy. really.
but i still cant do it.
failure.
met char to go pasir ris park to have a good chat.
i felt much much better.
thanks alots.
too many things happened ytd.
kbox from 2-7!
its not enough..
i want more more time!

ytd. had a surprise planned out for cal.
many failures here and dere.
but we still succeeded in surprising him.
and smash cream on him!
not too over.. hahas.

some stuff are happening in such a weird way.
i dont uds.
i am really starting to wonder if i really belong to jc.
is it too late now..
i wanna do wad i want and like.
i wanna go overseas to study.
music.
but no one will ever approve of it.

ytd night was the worst ever.
cldnt stop cryng.
the stress is too much for me to handle.
you're the one i need most.
but i noe you'll nvr be back anymore.

10:47 PM

♥ Sunday, October 4, 2009

no one will uds wth is going on with me.
no one will except for you.
since you're gone so dere will no one.
life has no meaning.
seriously no meaning.
its the worst ever situation i've seen in my whole life.
cant believe how screwed i am.
just SCREWED.
cuz no one ever uds.

11:35 PM

♥ Friday, October 2, 2009

HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY TO SHERYL! :D
i promise to celebrate it for you on tue :D

haven blog for quite some time.
mainly cuz my promos have started.
and you wont imagine how tired i am!
to the extent that i can feel myself dozing off while doing the papers.
argh wad happen if i really fall aslp and wake up.
time's up. gg. @_@

somehow i'm slacking too much.
how can i go out to play during promos.
okies now i dontnoe wad i am trying to do.

wed. slacked arnd with sheryl at compass.
subway starbucks lib.
how long have we not spend time tgt like tt.
since the times back at nc?
always slacking at these places after sch time.
i miss those times.
however, it gets boring too.
tt's why we went to pasir ris park and met basil there too.
yeas its a torture walking so muchhhh!
but its a nice place to destress.
both of us did something.
you succeeded but i didnt.
i got rejected! :(
it took me quite some time to decide to do that.
never did such stuff b4.
maybe the first and the last.
singing while walking.
i bet ppl think we're mad :p
anw chem paper is screwed.
i swear i put everything into it.
but i still cant do it.
seriously ger has no chemistry brain cells at all!

thur. met up with sher and basil after the horrible day.
super tired cuz of my weird studying method.
sleep one hour. wake and study for awhile.
and the cycle continues for the whole night.
decided to go to K at 5.. and sang till 9.
yeps tiring day.
econs and physics both screwed up.
didnt focus much on it.
chem was my focus.
but it bring down my confidence lvl badly.

now.. i just came back from a crazy journey.
went to met char at serangoon mrt.
went down to clarke quay to look for some cupcakes shop.
but failed terribly.
toe having a blister and the weather is HOT like mad!
with my sch uni.
its maddening -.-
after failing the first mission..
we decided to go down to potong pasir to look for dis shop tt sells soyabean.
yes ger dont eat tt.
but i wanted to prove to char tt places tt sell soyabean will have grassjelly.
obviously i'm wrong. arghhhh!!!!
somehow made our way to kallang leisure park to continue to look for cupcakes.
failed. second time.
ur junior is an idiot! =x
give all wrong info!
yah so we cabbed home from kallang mrt cuz i'm having a wedding dinner tonight.
came back and realised no one's back yet.
okies i shall go prepare.
hope tt i wont die of boredom at tt place.

you're everything on my mind.
missing you terribly.

5:53 PM