♥ glkw

♥ Wednesday, October 14, 2009

just went to tell mom tt i am preparing to go to poly.
since its almost 100% that i will be retained.
yes if i'm not retained, i'm gonna treat sheryl to 3 good meals!
i know mom has been thinking very highly of me in every aspect.
but somehow at this point, i failed very badly.
like wad she said, i am wasting one whole yr of my life.
but cant she just accept it that i am just not suitable for jc anymore.
i've really tried my very best.
after wad happened during mid-yrs, i've told myself and promised ppl that i'll work really hard for promos exams.
i really did! but nth is achieved.
my promos results is still as bad as mid-yrs.
she just dont uds cuz she nvr really see me studying at home.
yah so i'm rather sure tt i wanna head towards poly now.
there's no pt retaining one more yr when i'm unsure if i can promote nxt yr.
i really cannot stand my mom.
giving every single excuse tt she can find to explain my failure dis time.
i am accepting the fact tt i cant do it after putting so much hard work.
so why muz she interfere when she's not the one studying?
she is just my mother in status.
i may sound rude.
but the fact is I AM THE ONE WHO IS STUDYING.
I AM THE ONE WHO REALLY KNOW IF I HAVE PUT IN EFFORT.
i really hate her for stating some crappy reasons tt she think that have resulted in my failure and also the decision to go to the poly.
i really hate it.
why muz she remind me of the pain that i've been trying so hard to forget.

i know you wont ever be there for me anymore.
i really hope you will do well.
imy.

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